a guitar spear fanfic🫡

may be filler, may be important idek

•LUTE'S POV•

after wakimg up and rubbing my eyes to see adam getting dressed in the corner, this wave of guilt and memories of last night rush over me. I make eye contact with Adam as he walks into my bathroom. oh my gosh.

I DID THAT WITH MY BOSS?!
ill never live this down, i mean i genuinely might quit rn. how humiliating. I know he definitely doesnt care, for him thats probably just any tuesday night and i mean i know he fucks around and everyone has a crush on him and he knows that! i cant let him know i feel like that about him. THATS IT wait bc what if i treat this whole situation LIKE HE WOULD! if i act nonchalantly about last night he can think i just wanted casual sex. Hell yea, that wont blow my cover.

I quickly get up to start getting ready for training and i literally cant stop trembling, i am SO anxious its gonna be hard to give my normal scowl. As I take one of my uniforms out of the dryer, I remember how it felt when he would run his hands up and down my back, how he would ever so gently kiss all over my body. For fucks sake I cant be thinking about these things. I dont do casual hookups like Adam does and i really dont know how to act cool about it. Fuck fuck fuck and mmy first casual fling is with my literal boss. the head guy. fuuuuuck me.

I hear Adam routing through one of my junk drawers and i ask him what hes looking for. Adam just leans out of the doorway and says
"Nothing im particular. I just like to snoop" with a shit eating grin across his face

I roll my eyes and scoff, thats so him. Once we finish getting ready and we walk out together he asks "so are we gonna act like what happened last night just..didnt?" It was so hard to keep walking after what he said, I couldnt find the words to say to explain myself, when he talks again.
"I mean Lute if you wanted this holy dick, you coulda just asked"

L-"Sir what happened last night was just a fling. I deeply apologize if it makes you-"

A-" Lute were not even at training yet and youre already back on your shit with Sir. And dont even start with your apologies. we had sex, were two adults that just also work together. just dont make it a huge deal were all good."

L-"dont make a huge deal, says the one yelling about our relations on the fucking promenade"

A-"Well i have to brag any chance i get" While he shrugs with that goofy smile.

•ADAM'S POV•

Shit. That was so hard to say but how the hell else am i supposed to be chill about this? I mean she kinda initiated it, youd think she would be all into me after everything weve been theough together,, especially last night?? I know i fuck around a lot but I never even expect to wake up next to them the next morning. Not to mention how weird ive been feeling around her lately, last night was just the cherry on top. I just cant understand why she's acting like it was just a casual hookup. Maybe thats how her casual hookups go?? Lute what kind of hookups do u have with that much passion and eagerness, and then just turn back into mean work Lute. Dont get me wrong i absolutely adore mean work Lute but the side i saw last night its just.. im speechless about it. It was perfect in every way, Im so used to just banging for the feel, or like when im too lazy to jack off, the amount of feelings and energy that we shared last night... i cant even fathom how shes acting this way rn. It may just be me? maybe im too emotionally connected here, fuck Im probably just overthinking this whole thing. If shes gonna be her normal >:| self then ill just continue that dynamic of our friendship. No matter how much it irks me.

We continued to walk to headquarters talking about normal work stuff but i felt so awkward. How can i just hide every thought of her to make my brain chill the fuck out so i can work?

Once we do our normal chat in with all the exorcists, they split off into groups and train like that. I tried to work with my group but I couldnt stay focused. Eventually I pulled aside one of the higher ranking angels, and just gave her my plan board. I had to leave to be alone with my thoughts, theres no way i could be productive with her only a few yards away from me.

Once I got into my office I removed my mask and I just sat with my head in my hands. The only thoughts running through my mind are how Ive most likely ruined our friendship. All bc I was horny. My best worker, my drinking buddy, my best friend, shes like 80% of my life. So I just sat in my chair feeling like shit for about and hour when i heard a faint knock on the door.

•LUTE'S POV•

Adam has been super low energy all morning and Im not sure why. Im literally praying that whatever his mood is about has nothing to do with last night. I shouldnt have done that with my boss and I know that now. Fuck i regret it so much it just felt so right in the time being. He's literally my best friend, I dont hang out with anyone else other than Emily, and she gets annoying after a while. If i fuck up our friendship bc I WAS HORNY i dont even know what i would do with myself. Anytime theres even the smallest thing wrong he comes to me first and rambles for hours about whatever is on his mind. He's still acting like himself with how he talks and his jokes but I can tell theres something he's upset about. At some point while training i see he put one of his angels in charge while he "ran errands" which i know is bullshit, hes probably in his office playing clash of clans or something.

As I approach his office I knock on the door and it took a little longer than usual for him to open.

A-"Oh hey Lute whats up is training going okay?"

L-"Yea the girls are doing fine, I got it under control. You on the other hand.. I can tell something is up"

A-"oh me? lute cmon im perfect. just needed a little time alone since I didnt have coffee this morning."

I shouldve made some this morning but my mind was all over the place so it didnt even cross my mind. Still i dont think its just the lack of caffeine thats bothering him. I just wish he'd tell me.

L-"Ok well I can go get you something if youd like-"

A-"Noo dont worry its okay ill just get Emily to bring me some joe from upstairs"

I mean i can go get it from upstairs, but Im sure he just wants to talk to someone else right now. I nod and head out, still feeling shitty. But tending to the angels is my job when Adam doesnt need me so I guess thats just what I'll do..