a guitar spear fanfic🫡

im still writing this?🤔

•ADAM'S POV•

I can tell she's trying to make me feel better, but I cant be around her rn. I need to come up with a game plan on how to keep my composure around her. I cant outwardly tell her how i feel- i dont even know how i feel! i really want to keep it chill but fuck i cant. I need another girls ideas on this.
Once Lute sweetly checks in on me and leaves, I dial up Emily to come chat. Shes never really busy unless Sera gives her a task. Shocker she isnt busy and she is gonna be here in a second with some coffee from upstairs.

E-"Hey dude! whats up?"
A-"hey emily, i got some news. not the best news but i need to talk."
E-"oh okay yea absolutely just let it out friend"
A-"so a couple weeks ago Lute ans i were hanging out like usual and she got a little drunk and fell asleep on me, then i couldnt stop thinking about her and how sweet it was, THEN we hang out again SOBER THIS TIME and we have the most passionate sex ive had since Ive been with Eve. I mean Emily im not trying to be super TMI but I cant explain it any other way. It was-"

Emily sits there with her mouth wide open and shock filled her eyes as he explains.

A-"Im sorry I just dont have really anyone else to tell this to, usually id go to Lute but obviously now-"
E-" Adam.. you know im always here to listen and give advice. But i dont know the first thing about Lute, shes an absolute brick wall to me"
A-"Same!! Ive never gotten much out of her but this past month has just been a roller coaster"

They continue to talk about Lute and how Emily thinks that he should think over the whole situation before doing anything rash.

Cut to about a month later- Still Adam pov

Its been about a month since Lute and I have seen each other outside of work. This is killing me. Ive finished two bottles of Jack Daniels withOUT her. I hate drinking alone but it makes me feel a tiny bit better. Still doesnt stop the memory of Lute asleep on my shoulder. Resting my arm around her while she quietly snores herself to sleep. Or worst of all the memory of her being under me, whimpering. Holding her face while she twitches under my touch. Fuck.

I cant stand to be away from her but, anytime when were in a room together I feel that knot in my stomach. Im still keeping it cool in front of her, in fact Ive gotten better at hiding my inner emotions when Im around her, the mask definitely helps. I want to invite her out with me to do anything just to be with her, to be around her when she doesnt have her mask on. I miss her beautiful eyes, how her hair lays so perfectly above her shoulders. I could never get enough of her beauty.

A-"Looty Tute Tuteeee whatcha up to after 4 today"
L-"I have a lot of reports to finish up this weekend, and that dumb color file thing that Sera sent out last week-"
A-"Sooooo what Im hearing is you need a night out? A fun night out with your bestie boo thang?"
L-"I mean, I can get the reports done tomorrow. a night out sounds actually wonderful"
A-"HELLLL YEAH DANGERTITS WERE GOIN OUT ON THE TOWN TONIGHT"

Lute rolls her eyes but excitedly asks what time sounds good to go
A-"ummm literally whenever? i havent gotten to hang out with my lieutenant in too long!"
L-"Awesome that sounds great sir, ill be ready at 5:45."
A-"FUCK YEAAAA i get to take my lutie patootie out for drinkssss"
L-"you are such a wild card"

•LUTE'S POV•

Thats exactly what i needed today. I just want a nice night out with my best bud. Totally not anything gonna happen though. We're just two besties gonna go get a drink and play pool like old times. I miss Adam so much. I regret that night only because it threw Adam off and i think thats why hes been soooo distant ever since. But damn that night was so hot, I mean he just knew everything and how to do it. Im not that experienced since i usually keep to myself, but what he was doing was straight out of a wattpad story (funny bc this is a wattpad story)

Nevertheless I have to shake those thoughts right now and get ready to go out. I got this one black dress a while ago and its too cute to stay in the closet all the time, but i also dont wanna wear it and ruin it. So i figured tonight should be pretty calm considering he knows Ive got work to finish tomorrow. I fluff my hair and do my makeup before putting it on. Once im ready i realize I rushed a little too much and its 5:17 🙄

Although i told adam I'd be ready at 5:45 I knew he would knock on my door hella early. So I just scroll through my phone. Even with my phone as a distraction I cant stop thinking of his hair sticking to the sweat on his forehead while he made out with me on my bed. My brain keeps reminding me how gentle and slow he was with me, making sure everything was okay before he'd go further. How he would move my hair out of my face while pounding the sh-

*knock knock knock*

I jump at the sudden noise feeling my face really warm, i check my watch 5:28. just about right for him. I open the door to see him in his black jeans,  a band tshirt that looks like an acid trip, and his beautiful flowy brown hair.
BE CHILL BE CHILL BE CHILL
L-"You're early. As per usual."
A-"And you're already ready!"
L-" are you ready to leave?"
A-"Always ready for you hottie"

Really trying to keep my cool here and he keeps on with that shit. On the walk over to the bar we talk about everything that we havent really had the time to talk about for the past almost 4 weeks. It was so refreshing to just conversate like that again, i really missed him. When we get there we order our jack&cokes and just sitting at the bar, were talking about this football game on one of the tvs, but i can tell when i get really fixated on the tv he just looks at me instead of the game. Now i cant tell if hes looking at me or past me, and it wouldnt really matter to me if hes oogling at one of the angels here. It would just bring us back to square one. and i guess thats okay.

•ADAM'S POV•

Damn I really missed talking to her, she was talking to me like how we used to talk. Sitting at the bar with her was just so relaxing, like this is all I want to do. When the bartender turns the football game on Lute just becomes hyperfocused on this game. I always forget how much she loves football, Im not sure why but anytime its on, she will not listen to you. All Ive ever squeezed out her during a game is a "uh huh" or "oh yea"

So once we had stopped talking so much I just kept sneaking looks at her. She is so pretty, and damn I love her in her uniform but this dress goes crazy. I was admiring her eyelashes when she recognized I was staring. Deadass I thought I was caught, until I kinda moved my gaze like an inch away and Im not kidding she whipped her head around like I was looking at someone else. crisis averted😌😎