fuck all of you.
i told myself i wouldn't fall after her
told myself I would wait
i would wait for my fairytale
do you know how long that lasted?
two weeks.
two weeks after her and i was already falling.
and then
in the midst of falling
you came around
and now i'm confused
because how am i supposed to live with this information
this wonderful horrible information you have given me
and not think about you in that way
i have fallen for you because you have fallen for me
and that is the worst feeling
because now i do not know what is real and what is fiction
do i like you or do i like the attention?
but the way you text me
i don't ever want to go to sleep
i would stay awake forever
to talk to you
why would you talk to me like that?
why would you tell me shit like that?
why would you be the closest thing to perfect i have ever met
i was fine
i was fine with her
i knew i would not be a thing with her and i could handle that pain because she was beautiful and we were friends
but now you've gone and made me fall for you
and you like me too.
what the fuck am i supposed to do?
i have to leave you.
i have to leave and i can't be with you and i can't risk ruining this beauty we have found
but i love the way you make my heart feel
fuck
i hate you.
i hate you so much.
because i love you. i hate that i love you in more ways than one.
YOU ARE READING
If She Was Mine
PoetryI don't ever want to love you as much as I possibly can cause if I did that means I wouldn't get to fall more in love with you every day like I do (Excerpt from "falling off a cliff") If She Was Mine is a collection of poems. Each poem has it's own...
