If She Was Mine

hate the way i love you, pt. 2

fuck all of you.

i will never forget you

the way you looked at me before "bursting my bubble"

the way you told me i was your favorite

and then never gave us a chance.

i will never forgive you.

you we're the entirety of my heart my soul my thoughts.

and it's taken me so long to rid myself of the thought of you

you make me so sick i fear i have turned blue.

i have lived a life of love

and i have loved you my whole life

i think i hate you.

you lead me on and then left me for god and now i see how horrible you treated me

but i will never forget

the taste of your lips.

or the way you smiled

and held my hand.

i will never forget you, 

the pain of the addiction,

the high too.

i will never ever forget you.

even though i wish i could.

i miss you.

i know it was the right thing to do.

because i miss you, but i don't know who i miss because i didn't know you

i didn't know you, no matter how much i tried.

she said i should text you, but what good would that do?

i was in love with you, i wish you the best, and i will always love you.

but i do not regret what i said.

i may regret the way i ended it.

the way i left and should've said more.

but i do not regret that i did it.

i love you my lightning

i hope you find your fairytale.

and i hope you know

that sometimes

late at night

i still wish you were mine.

i hate the way i love you.

i hate the way i think about you.

i hate how much of me you consume.

i hate you all, so much.

i hate you with everything in me.

and my least favorite thing.

is that i don't hate you.

i just hate the way i love you.