Olivia De La Cruz, Arsenal women's new summer signing, pictured purchasing morning after pill after what appears to be a walk of shame after being seen wearing the same clothes as last night...
"What the actual fuck?", I muttered after reading the article sent to me by Katie. My phone pinged again with a few notifications from the group chat I have with the girls in Barcelona.
Ingrid🥰
We just seen the article, Liv, is everything okay?
Mapi💕
Luckily the backlash isn't negative or this could have been a lot worse
Keira🥹
Seriously though, Liv, is everything okay? That's not really like you
Lucy💙
Lotte said you guys were out last night, did something happen?
Alexia😝
Was he good looking at least?
Me
Stop asking my friends about me, Jesus.
A girl has needs, Sal de mi espalda (get off my back).
I put my phone down and poured myself a glass of water. I took the pill as well as some painkillers for the looming headache before walking over to the sofa and turning on the tv.
Unknown number
I had fun last night, we should do it again sometime
Definitely not. I didn't bother replying to him. I went to put my phone down before it buzzed again.
"Jesus fucking Christ, give me a break", I huffed as I looked at the message that came through.
Less🤍
Open up
I let out a sigh before shuffling my way over to the door, opening it and walking straight back to the comfort of my sofa.
"If you've come here to lecture me I'd rather you not, thanks", I said looking at the tv.
"I didn't come here to lecture you, you can do what you want but you need to be careful doing it", she said as she sat down beside me.
"I know", I muttered.
"I don't think you should be avoiding your feelings for Leah-"
"This sounds like a lecture", I scoffed.
"It's not, it's just- it's not healthy for you to push your feelings down"
"There are not feelings to push down"
"You're as good a liar as you are at cooking-"
"Hey! I can cook"
"Not very well, just like you can't lie to me"
"Fine", I huffed as I picked at my fingers nervously. "I do like her, I'm not sure why when all she does is irritate me but when I'm not with her, I don't know I- I guess I miss her? And when I see her talking to Jordan, I've never felt jealousy like that, and the slightest bit of physical contact I have with her gives me serious butterflies"
"Why don't you tell her?", Less asked softly.
"I might have told her last night"
"Really?"
"Well not those exact words, I think my exact words were 'You don't fucking get it do you, Williamson? These past few weeks have been nothing but a head fuck for me, I'm confused about how I'm feeling and it's your fault and you and Jordan are- I don't fucking know what you are but it's helped me realise that the feeling isn't mutual so I don't fucking like you, I can't', Jesus, I'm an asshole"
"Yeah that was a bit harsh, Liv", Less said as I sighed.
"I know, and I slept with that guy so she probably hates my guts even more now", I groaned as I threw my head back on the sofa.
"Enemies to lovers, I'm invested now"
"Lovers? Okay firstly, slow down, and secondly, it's never gonna happen"
"Oh, it's gonna happen, I'm not gonna let you pass up your chance of happiness, real happiness", Less said as she smiled at me softly. "Tomorrow at training, you'll talk to her then, tell her how you feel"
"What if she rejects me?", I whispered.
"What if she doesn't?", Less said as the room went silent. What if she doesn't?
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Leah had ignored me all day which was making it hard to talk to her and tell her how I feel. I decided the only thing I could do was corner her. We were all headed out towards the pitches before I held Leah back in the changing rooms. She tried to walk past me but I moved to stand in front of her.
"Just listen to me, please?", I said as she noticed the slight crack in my voice and nodded.
"That guy I slept with-"
"I really don't want to hear about that-"
"Just fucking listen, Leah, this is hard enough as it is without you talking over me", I said as I played with the strings on my shorts. She nodded for me to continue.
"I did it because I was angry. Angry at you for making me feel this way about you and then flirting with Jordan right in front of me. I thought I could just get with someone to piss you off to show you I don't care but I do care. I care about you, Leah, I- I like you and I- I'm fucking terrified because you're all I can think about", I said with tears in my eyes and I couldn't read the expression on her face. We were standing in silence which wasn't helping the anxiety coursing through me.
"Say something, please", I whispered before the door opened and Kim walked in.
"Jonas is looking for you 2", she said waiting for us.
"Yeah, we're coming", Leah said as she walked past me and out of the door. I felt the wind being knocked out of me after just confessing how I feel and not getting any sort of response. I took a deep breath before following Leah and Kim outside. Kim looked over her shoulder and gave me a concerned look but I just avoided her gaze. We joined the rest of the girls in the circle as I wrapped my arms around me, almost trying to protect myself from everyone which was an old habit. I looked over at Less who was giving me a look as if to say 'how did it go?', I just shook my head at her as she looked at me apologetically.
