Chapter 9

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*Harry's POV*

I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, once Lina left. I have to push her away and make her hate me. If she starts to like me, she'll be heartbroken again. She'll be in pain and I don't want to see her that way. I'm doing this for her good and mine. If I begin to like her, I won't be able to keep myself normal. I'll be crazy and uncontrollable, with  love making me that way. She needs a life full of happiness without me in it.

The way she told me her story touched me and that motivates me to not have her struggle again. I don't want to be the cause of her being in pain. I just hope she realizes she needs to let me go. Just like I need to let her go.

'But you can't.' my conscious speaks. I shake my head not letting it get to me. I have to be strong. 'You need her.' It speaks again. 'Go get her.'

Suddenly it controls my feet and drags me to the front door. I open it to find her sitting on the sidewalk. I begin to walk up to her, but Damon's car pulls up. I stop in my tracks and slightly feel more empty inside. She deserves him, not me. Lina gets into the car, but she looks out the window and meets my eyes. My eyes look away quickly and I move to the side of the yard to pick up empty cups thrown everywhere. I just hope she didn't realize I was going to talk to her, but in the back of my head I hope she did. They drive away as I keep picking up trash. We have a week left before school starts and I'm hoping I'll see her more often.

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