The Brightest Dark (Harry Styles) BOOK 1

Chapter 44

"You can sleep in the guest room," Kian walks out of his kitchen with a glass of water.

He hands me the glass of water and I take a sip of it.

"Thank you again, Kian. I seriously don't know what I would do without you," I sigh.

I had told Kian I didn't want to see my parents right now. They're gonna ask me too many questions and I'll probably break down in front of them. I don't want to deal with that right now. So Kian insisted I stay with him in his apartment, till I get back on my feet.

"Your my best friend, I'd do anything for you," he rubs my shoulder lightly.

"I wish I could some how repay you," I tell him.

"No, no repaying. Just be you, I don't need anything but you," he declares.

"But you always save me from him and I just feel really bad," I choke as my throat burns, trying to contain my tears.

He wraps his arms around me, "best friends are made to ace each other, when the time comes, I'm sure you'll save me too."

"We should get some sleep, it's 4 in the morning," he adds.

I let go of him, "yea, I'll see you in the morning."

He nods and makes his way to his room. I enter the guest room across from his. I look around to find it very modern and classy. The walls a light sand color and a large king sized bed in the middle with a big white comforter on it, covered in many decorative pillows.

The door of the room opens and Kian steps in with clothes in his hand. He lays them on the little dresser next to him.

"I brought you some of my clothes to sleep in," he notifies me.

"Thank you," I smile.

His hand places on the knob and I turn around to pull the comforter a bit off the bed to be able to get in.

"Lina," Kian's soft voice makes me face him again.

He waits at the door, his hand still on the knob. He has a look of concern and I know what's about to come at me.

"Are you going to forgive him?" He asks.

I stand there awkwardly, "I don't think so...not this time."

He nods and closes the door behind him. I inhale deeply and grab the clothes from the dresser and change into them. The shirt reaches over my thighs and his boxers reach my knees. Kian's super tall so I expected it to be this large.

I wrap myself under the blanket and shut off the lamp. I fall asleep with Harry still on my mind. Tears finally stream down my face, I don't even want to fight them. The way he fell to his knees crushes my heart and I can't help but feel terrible for it.

*Harry's POV*

I stand up from the floor and wipe my tears away. I walk to the bathroom and lock myself in it. Just hearing those words she said kills me. She never loved me, she was faking it. I should have known all of this was a lie, I'm stupid and worthless. She's always loved Kian and I was stupid to not see it before. I mean he's always been there for her, how could she not?

I was never there to soothe the pain...because I always caused it.

I punch the wall angrily, sending my fist through the wall. I breath heavily, taking my head in my hands and scream. "She never loved me and never will."

I get out of the bathroom before I smash anything else. I run to my car and start the engine. This is all Kendall's fucking fault, if she hadn't kissed me, this wouldn't have happened. Or if I just said no to Louis and stopped being a pussy, we would have been together in my apartment. I would have heard her uncontrollable giggles as I tossed her onto my bed. Her smile would have been because of me.

I punch my steering wheel as more tears fall down my face. I'm selfish and completely stupid, how could I have not known Kendall would do something like that? I only wanted to ask her how Bruce was doing after turning into Caitlyn, but no, she just wanted to talk about how hot I am. I tried changing the subject, but she brought her lips to mine and I couldn't get her off me. I'm stupid...

"Fuck, Lina. I'm sorry, I'm so god damned sorry for driving you through hell," I whisper to myself.

"I loved you, I loved you so much. I wish you did, but I guess since I love you........I should let you go, you should be happy with Kian," I wipe my eyes.

I shake my head and grin. What am I doing? I'm talking to myself, I look stupid and I am. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm literally insane, I should be put into a mental hospital.

I drive away from the house and head to only place I can go. Back to my empty apartment and soak in my sadness.

I wonder if Lina even feels sad or if she's damn happy that she got rid of me. She probably kissing Kian, thanking him for all he's done for her. He'll probably fuck her...

I press on the gas and race down to my apartment. Once I get there I grab my phone and call her, I don't fucking care if she doesn't love me, I need her. I can't stand to be without her. She's all I've got left. I don't have contact with anyone, not even my parents.

It rings multiple times, but there is no answer. I try at least 20 times, but she never answers. I fall onto the couch and lay my head in my hands.

Nothing can stop this pain raging through my numb body. It's like getting sucked into hell with nothing but fire rising to your throat and the devil just laughing as you burn to death.

"I had you Lina, you were all I had. And now your gone," I whimper.

She's gone and I know she'll never come back. This was the last chance and I blew it. I fucking ruined everything. I just wish I could hold her one last time in my arms and tell her how much I love her. The things she makes me feel, she was the reason I wasn't insane. And now that's she gone, I don't think I'll ever be sane again.