A Toxic Love

Chapter 6- The Awkward Message

A week had passed and Nicholas didn't show any signs of him actually liking me or not, if anything I think he was avoiding me.

so I tried and did things to capture his attention. and example being wearing an incredibly tight dress that Sara let me borrow. I went up and talked to Nicholas about some work and that conversation lasted about twenty seconds at most. I also tried to wear a crop top to show off my abnormally large tits (not going to say what size I am because it's way too big). Me and Sara actually pretended to drop a pencil in front of him so he could see down my top but he paid no attention whatsoever. I know how slutty I sound but I couldn't think of any other ways to get his attention. I decided to consult my friends about Nicholas.

"He could just be a bit shy because he's never had this happen to him before, because he's never actually had a girlfriend or a girl like him for that matter," said Lucy.

"do you think?" i asked.

"Or he just doesn't like you and he doesn't want to hurt your feelings," suggested Sara.

"Oh my God I don't even know," I said.

Later that night I called Imy to ask her advice. I explained to her everything that happened prior to now.

"Okay, now you just need to be straightforward with him because you'll just end up running in circles," said Imy.

With that we decided to construct a very detailed and straightforward message to Nicholas on Facebook. this message read as follows:

'Look, I know you know that I like you and I think I've made it pretty obvious and I just want to know how you feel back, if you don't like me the same way then we can just forget this ever happened but if you do like me then we can do something about it. just tell me because its killing me and i need to know'

I know, I know, it's so cringy to read, imagine how weird it was to write and send? yes I actually sent this message to the guy I liked at the time. after a few minutes i saw that he had read the message and he was sending a response. I was so nervous, my heart was fluttering and I felt like this was a life and death situation. but deep inside i knew he was going to say no to me. I received the reply which read:

'I don't like you in the same way, sorry'

when I read that I felt like somebody told me i only have hours to lie, in my case my social life only had hours to live. at that moment i immediately texted Nicole saying:

'Nicholas just rejected me'

I immediately then got a phone call from Nicole. I answered it.

"Go on let it all out," she said.

"I'm not that upset actually, because i knew he was going to say no," I said. I spoke to Nicole for about ten minutes, which actually got a lot off my chest. I told her I had to go and called Imy straight after. I told her what he said.

"What a rude fucking bitch! honestly babe he's not worth your time and you deserve way better than that wanker.

"Thanks babe, you know just what to say," I laughed. we talked for a bit then went to bed.

through that whole weekend though i still felt weird about it all. I just felt embarrassed because so many people knew that I liked him and of course Nicholas would have told his friends, and practically the whole year would have known about my naive attempt to capture Nicholas' heart. I needed to put my mind on something else.