A Toxic Love

Chapter 16 - too much information

"Oh my God Anita. You really lost your virginity to Jake on a classroom table? this sounds too cringey to be true," said Katie when i was telling her everything on the way to school.

"Sadly its all true, but you must not tell anyone. i especially don't want Jake's brother finding out, imagine how awkward our photography lessons will be if he did," i said.

"Well i think they're already a bit awkward considering you have printed out entire contact sheets consisting of Jake," laughed Katie. i laughed too as it was pretty funny.

"By the way don't wait for me after school today," i said to Katie.
"Okay, but have sex properly this time,"
"Its not me you need to say that to," i laughed.
As per usual, or rather what was becoming more usual, i spent all of my frees, lunch and break with Jake. It was beginning to feel weird if i didn't if I'm honest. We talked as we did and occasionally mentioned my uncanny similarities to Mia Khalifa and a good few stares at my tits. Even though it was embarrassing, it was also just a laugh. I didn't mind them doing it, i only minded people who weren't my friends doing it.

It was lunch, and we were all together in M13.

"Anita, come with me to the toilets," said Louise. i nodded and we went down to the toilets. we started chatting as usual and then i brought something up that was playing on my mind for a while.

"Louise, how do you think Jake feels about me?" I asked. she looked at me.

"Why do you ask?"

"Well, when we're together, he just acts different to how he does with the rest of you guys. and it's probably because we've had sex or whatever but he seems to be doing it in a weird way, like i can't describe it but do you know what i mean?"

"I'll be honest with you, i know what you mean, like he does act weird with you, like more close or intimate, and he doesn't want anyone to know that you've had sex together but he's making it very obvious that something's going on with you both. Personally, knowing what i know about him and you, i think he doesn't even know himself what he feels. Do you like him?" said Louise.

"I don't think i like him, but he was asking me about kids and living together the other day which completely confused me, and i don't know what to do with him anymore,"

"hmmm, well at the end of the day, you should do what makes you happy, amd i think you can do so much better than him,"

"I definitely do not see a future with him, and i don't want to even date him but i feel like this is gradually getting more and more out of hand," I said. "I guess we'll just see what happens,"

So, later on that night, i got a snap from Jake. it read "I think we should stop our friends with benefits relationship,". This took me off guard but i knew it was for the best. i agreed with him as eventually we were both going to want more committed relationships.

Just then, my mum slowly came into my bedroom. she could tell something had been troubling me for a while, and it was that i had even done these sinful acts, of sending inappropriate pictures. when my mum asked me what was wrong, i burst out into tears and confessed to her what i had done. however to my surprise she didn't lash out on me. She stayed silent and took a while to take in what i had said. i felt so bad, at the time i was sending these pictures i hadn't even begun to comprehend how bad this all was. i was only 17, i could go to prison. my dad was out late that night, so my mother told him everything once he got home.

The next morning, my mum and dad called me downstairs to talk about what happened. through that entire conversation i was in tears and could hardly speak, but i told them everything. i gave them Jake Boston's name. i had to. i had no other choice. If he had known my situation, he may have understood me.

"We are going to have to get the school involved,"

"NO! Please don't!" i sobbed.

"Anita! We have to! this is technically is a crime! and he has put you in a vulnerable position because he took screenshots," said Mum

"Anita, give me your phone, we have to see all the pictures of you and Jake on your phone so they can be dealt with and deleted," said Dad

I gave my parents my phone and ran up to my room and wept all weekend