A Toxic Love

Chapter 11- Promises

Monday morning arose and i could feel my stomach churning. through the entire weekend i was sending inappropriate and explicit images to Jake and now i didn't even know what to consider him. was he my friend? my boyfriend? my side hoe? i didn't know. but i would today.and even weirder, i actually needed a guy and a girl for my photography project which was also my exam piece and i was planning on asking Jake, but one thing at a time i guess. I hadn't told anybody about the nudes until that morning. i needed to tell Katie. As i suspected Katie at first thought i was joking, but she soon believed me when i showed her one of the images that i sent.

"Anita, what were you thinking?" gasped Katie in absolute horror.

"I don't know, look, things just escalated," i said.

"I wouldn't say escalated, i'd say flew through the fucking roof,"

"Oh God it is! I'm a fucking slut!" i wailed.

"Well i wouldn't say slut, you never fucked anyone. and has he taken any screenshots?" 

"No, he hasn't," i said.

"So, are you two dating or something now? or what are you guys now?" she asked.

"I have no fucking clue," i said. "But i'm going to try and find out. have you done any photography?" i asked.

"What do you think?" she said.

"I haven't either," i laughed. "I was actually thinking about asking Jake to model for my final piece as well,"

"Well by the sounds of it he's already done some pictures for you," laughed Katie hysterically. i pushed her and laughed with her.

"You're so gross," i giggled.

"What, and you aren't?" she laughed.

When i got to school i went to the Sixth Form building to find Louise and Nayab, i assumed Jake would be with them. my hunch was correct. I saw them through the window of M13. before i went in i composed myself to have a sexy vibe when i walked in. so, i opened the door and sort of strutted towards my friends. i felt like i was on a catwalk but it clearly didn't look it as the next thing i knew Louise said

"What the fuck are you doing?"

"Haha nothing," i laughed. i looked at Jake. he was smiling a lot at me, but it was sort of a cheeky grin, as if he knew something nobody else did, which in this case it was true.

"Hey Jake," i said slightly awkwardly.

"Hey," he grinned.

"Anita can i talk to you privately," said Louise as she dragged me out of the room before i could even answer. once we were in the hallway she said "Okay, what's going on with you two? You're both acting weird, did something happen?"

"Well, in a manner of speaking,"

"Did he ask you out?" asked Louise excitedly.

"No, we sent each other nudes," i said. Louise laughed hysterically and she stopped and freaked out.

"Oh my God Anita! What the fuck is wrong with you?! that's disgusting and is probably all over the internet!" screamed Louise.

"Shut up! i know its bad but Jake can't know i told you but yes that's what's happened which is why we're both acting a bit weird," i explained.

"So, you've seen his dick?" she asked. i nodded and grinned. "Is it small?" she laughed.

"Don't be mean," i laughed and we went back inside the classroom.

Soon enough the entire day went by and i hadn't even had a chance to ask Jake where we stood, but even he didn't say anything to me about where we stood. All this uncertainty was making me even more nervous and confused.

Eventually due to not saying anything to Jake for about two weeks, nudes escalated to being sent every night and all day during the weekends. and eventually shit was getting too real. Jake was wanting to properly have sex with me. but at the time you know and feel like its just a bluff like how people say 'i love pizza' like, you would actually get married and have babies with a pizza but you still love it. well he wanted to 'poke me out in the school toilets' and like i said i thought it was a bluff but oh how i was proved so wrong...