Things We Wish We Had Said Or Did.

Dear Daughter

I hope with all my heart
that I showed you the real me
that I didn't pretend I had it all together
or that life was not hard

I hope I gave you the belief of you in your core
that I loved you enough, albeit messily
to code a blueprint for life
to show you what love should look like

I hope I let you see me break
so you could understand it's not an ending
rather a step
and it's vital

Dear daughter
I could possibly have gotten everything right
and perhaps that's the best thing I have given you
the knowledge that no one gets it right
we are not here to be perfect
we are here to grow stronger
and more bright
with every generation

grow brighter my love
brighter than me
as it very much should be
and when I can no longer be here, remember
my cells live within you
you cannot ever lose me, not really

we are a deal, a two-for-two
I won't ever be too far.