Things we wish we had said or did.

My Father's eyes, My Mother's rage

dear dad,

I remember when I thought you could do no wrong;
now I realize all the wrong things you've done.
but I would instantly accept your apology
if you were man enough to give me one.

I needed the kind of dad who would intimidate
every stupid boy who wanted to date me,
look them in the eye and make them afraid
to break me.

when I was in a puddle of tears
from feeling not enough,
I needed a dad to pick me back up.
I needed your guidance, your presence, your love,
and I swear if you took one step toward me,
I would run into your arms.

but you keep walking away,
and I'm too tired for the chase.
so I sit with the sadness
because it's the only thing that stays.