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It was one warm summer morning on the third Friday of April 2019. The sun was up and was radiating warm sunlight, but according to the forecast, it might rain later today.
Maganda ang gising ko dahil baon ko pa rin ang kilig dahil sa binasa ko kagabi. Kahit ang maalinsang ang pakiramdam na dala ng long sleeves naming uniform at may kakapalan na below-the-knee skirt, college uniform for College of Business and Accountancy students, ay hindi ko alintana.
“Grabe, papasok lang ng school naligo pa ng pabango,” komento ni Janell sa akin, kaibigan ko simula Grade 11.
“Ganiyan talaga kapag may pinapabanguhan,” nakangising pang-asar sa akin ni Marj, kaibigan ko rin.
“Wala,” tanggi ko kahit na mayroon naman talaga. “Sarili ko lang. Self love lang tayo.”
Today is Friday, schedule ni Miguel sa Lucinda. Ibig sabihin, sasakay siya ng shuttle at may posibilidad na makasabay ko siya.
Satellite campus ng university namin ang Lucinda. Para marating iyon, kailangan mong sumakay ng shuttle na provided ng university, or ang mag-arkila, o ang kung may service ka ay mas maganda.
Pamilyar ako sa schedule niya dahil ilang beses ko na rin siyang nakakasakay simula pa noong start ng second sem namin. Noong una nga nagulat pa ako dahil hindi ko inaasahan na magkikita kaming dalawa. At hindi ko rin alam kung paano siya haharapin.
Given our last encounter, everything was awkward like I was stepping on a bed of sun-soaked asphalt. Hindi ko maman alam na gano’n pala ang mangyayari.
A year ago, in March of 2018, about five days before we marched for our graduation, my senior high school friend, Joy, told Miguel that I liked him in a composed message she wrote using my account directed to him.
During those moments, wala akong pakialam. Ang sabi ko lang, “go, lang. Wala na rin namang magbabago. Hindi na rin naman kami nag-uusap.”
That same day, while I was sitting beside her infront of our noisy classroom, she sent him a message, conveying what my feelings were for him.
I never regret that. I just accepted what the consequences were. We became more awkward than what we already were. We used you to steal glances at each other but even that became awkward, too.
I couldn’t even look at him, and so he was with me. But that was okay, I convinced myself.
But deep inside me, I think that was the end.
Dahil simula noong araw na iyon, ramdam ko na ang mas lalo pang pag-iwas sa akin ni Miguel.
Siniko ako ni Marj, kinukuha ang atensyon ko. “Hindi ba siya iyon? Si CAFA?”
