𝐏𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝 [ 리키 ] 

𝟏𝟐.

- 𝐋𝐞𝐞 𝐀𝐞𝐫𝐢 -
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A sudden knock on my door wakes me up, I have always been someone who could easily be woken up from my slumber,

I rub my eyes and glance at the clock on the other side of the room and it read 6:30, it's too early for my medicine, it too early for a medical checkup, it's too early for anything but Mrs. Chu morning walks but she doesn't ask me to join her without giving me a heads up the night before

I walk to the door and open it "Good morning Aeri" I blink a few times to make sure I'm seeing things right "Good morning Jungwon" I give me a small smile "What are you doing here?" I ask the male who seems to be too excited to even stand properly

"I wanted us to walk to breakfast together" I tilt my head confused, breakfast starts at seven which is half an hour from now "I still haven't had my morning pills" I gave him an apologetic smile as he tilted his head at me "You haven't?" I shook my head and I sense even more confusion from him "Don't you get them at six in the morning?"

"No, I get them at seven" He just hummed and we are left looking at each other awkwardly for a few seconds "Can I stay in your room until you have your pills?" I beg your pardon? "So we can walk to breakfast together" He further elaborates

"But boys and girls are prohibited to stay in the same rooms" He surely must've forgotten "Oh right, sorry." He scratches the back of his head "I'll see you at breakfast Aer" He gave me his signature smile with dimples and I smiled back waving goodbye and closed the door

I walk to the mirror in the my bathroom and stare at myself,

I like Jungwon, I like him, I like him so much, I have liked him since he helped me in the forest, I have liked him since that little friends date we had, I have liked him since we went out to the forest together, I have liked him since he got me my favorite flowers, I have liked him since we accidentally kissed, I have liked him then and I like him now and I'll like him in the future.

But why is my reflection failing to agree with me? Why can't she believe any of the words I'm saying? Why does she laugh at my thoughts? Why does she keep saying that I'm lying to myself? I'm not, I like Jungwon, a lot, more than I can put into words that's why I can't express myself.

But why does your heart still ache for him? For Riki? I feel her asking back and I cannot get myself to answer,

No. My heart belongs to Jungwon now, it doesn't matter who I thought it belonged to before, what matters is now, and I like Jungwon now, that's final.

"I don't have to worry about him, I'm sure I'm better."

God Riki.

"You're wrong, what really matters is at the end of the day who you will go back to and I'll make I'll be the only one you can come back to"

I take a deep breathe in,

"Actions speak louder than words sweetheart, just be patient and you will see"

My hands ball into fists and I hit my head on either side, leave my head Riki, leave my head.

I run my hands through my long hair and I take an even deeper breathe in, I glance at my state in the mirror and laugh at myself, I must really be going insane now.