Eremika:When The Time Is Right

19.Separate

Mikasa***

Fuck him.Fuck Eren .All I want to do is to make sure that he's okay. he's all I have.I love him so much I can't even be angry him I'm only hurt.Im only mad at myself,I always end up hurting myself with him , we're never truly happy together.Somthings always got to go wrong in out lives.

I head over to my room and I as I pass his door I wonder if I should say sorry,sorry because I'm said something and ruined our relationship.My hand hovers towards the door,I clench my fist to knock on the door but I don't,I end up walking away.Like a coward.

***

Morning..

The sun shining down on me,I walked up with a groan.I hate this.Althogh the sun wakes me up with the intent of brightening my day ,I'm left gloomier as if it's a reminder that i have no-one oto spend this beautiful day with.

After hours of programming, drawing and whatnot,Eren still lingers in the back of my mind.I want to speak with him.I need to.I pluck up the courage and dart towards his room.To my surprise, I see no-one.i glance towards the clock,it's 2 pm.
I tiptoe away from his room, he's going to come back soon.

8pm
I didn't hear from him all day,I reach into my back pocket and without a second a thought i call him, I don't care if he rages at me again I need to clear things up with him.No answer .My fingers aggressively hit call, call, call.I don't care,he is going to pick up.The line goes down.I pause and scavenge the room,I notice his bag and a few clothes are gone.I breathlessly knock everything out of its place,my heart race quickens, what else did he take,I desperately look around,trying to find something,nothing.im probably just active crazy, I look around the mess I made.Mikasa stop.This is crazy.he will come back, remember he doesn't like when I worry like this,I think to myself, trying to distract myself from the racing worrying thoughts reciding in my head.

I head towards my room, promising myself I'll sleep,for Eren, I'm not going to worry about him.as the temptation of sleep weights down on my eyelids,I find myself sleeping,soundly.

***The next day

The continuous cycle of the sun forcefully waking me ups has got to be a fucking joke.Its rubbing the fact that i have no-one to spend this beautiful day with the in my face,I find myself wandering to Erens room, ready to show the sun I have someone here with me,Instead it's still empty.Im suddenly awoken.The bed is still crumpled from how I left it.Fuck this.Ill act crazy . without a second thought I grab my phone and hit call ,if Eren dares gets mad at me,I have a reason,the line doesn't ring this time.instead it tells me the line is not recognised.i recall,I recall and I recall.The number is gone. I call him still, I leave voicemails, desperate to get some sort of response.

I've hit a brick wall.Eren fucking left me