Eremika:When The Time Is Right

38.Revelation

[Mature warning and mentions of sh]

Im sitting up on the bed, Mikasa cradles next to me, her body folding into me. I avert my eyes over at her.

She looks ethereal.

Her wispy, raven bangs, scattered across her rosy face, as its showcasing her dark eyelashes, like she's a doll, sculptured,her frail hand resting on my chest.

Carefully, i gently lift her hand slowly off it, as i push my legs off the bed, trying to subtley get out.

"Nhmm e-erenn where are yoooou goooing?"

I hear her groan as her hand pulls me back.

She's got a tight grib for someone who's half asleep

"Im just going to-"

"No-" she says, with a slightly elevated voice, her eyes widening as she lifts herself up to my level, her hair slightly messy, but it only captures her radiant beauty more."you can't leave "she pauses as she pants " not again "her voice coming to a break

In a instant, i rush closer to her as i grab ahold of her chin, pulling it towards my mouth."ill never leave you like that again.", kissing her.

Shit. i feel guilt rising up my chest.

As our lips touch, i feel her moans vibrating against by lip as i slip my tounge in her mouth,sucking on her lips.as i slowly slip out if the life giving kiss, i notice her arms. Her scars.The scars which almost ended her. I run my fingers across it. It looks recent enough to be at the events of when i left-

How could i be so irresponsible?

Without a second thought, i bring her forearm closer to my mouth, pressing it onto my lips, focusing on her deep cuts, kissing it, sucking on it, trying to make it go away when I know it won't, I slip out of the kiss as i grab ahold of her arm,

"I'll make sure you never hurt yourself like this again okay, baby" i say as i bring it towards my mouth, caressing her arm with my lips, i can't help myself as my chest burn with guilt.

If I didn't leave her-
If i didn't leave her she wouldn't have lost her memory, she would've been safer-
If i didn't leave her maybe it would be less difficult-

I feel her smooth body press into mine, as she sits herself on my lap, her legs planted at the sides of my hips as her arms wrap around my neck, facing me she brushes her lips on top of mine, which slowly ascends into her her lips pressing into mine, her tounge inserting in my mouth

"as long as your with me" she says, as she pants her dark eyes gaze into mine, before she contiues to claim my lips with hers.

How can she still love me after this?
As my guilt creeps up my spine, scraping it at every chance it gets, i only channel this energy to claim more

Pressing my lips into hers, as i aggressively jab my tongue inside her mouth, gripping on her waist as i pull her in towards me, as she lets out a man killing moan.

Oh the things she does to me.

As we stop for a breath, my hands placed on her waist her legs wrapped around mine, as i feel her stomach rise and deflate with her heavy breaths.

We sit in silence as the only present sounds are our deep pants.

"So u remember... everything" i ask

"yes i-"she stops promptly as she fidgets with her fingers, taking a deep breath"my head started to pound abd then-"she lets in a sharp breath, as she  freezes in a trice.

"Mikasa-"I try to grab ahold of her hands as she's frozen but she soon returns as she shakes her head

"Its... Nothing"she says as she smiles towards me.