letters to my ex

Re: cadillac eldorado, then? (she/me)

the most important thing to note when it comes to living in the moment is the fact that everything is fine until it's not,
and then what do you do?

you cower?
say a prayer?
no, you can't let your foul-mouthed grip run its tongue on this.

being here in the flesh would impel you to be too much,
too loud,
too wild,
too in it.

but i also know that you're not this.

you want to be here,
because no one told you that it's impossible.

you're here,
but you also wish to be the before and the after and this keeps you up at night.

you're here,
but lately, you're scared of him,
of how if he'd call for you, you'd come in a second, not even hesitating to fall into his atmosphere.

you're here,
and you give and take and give,
until you're bones and bones alone.

being here was never a problem for you,
being here too much is (was).

PS: extensions to what you were talking about, i guess. (?)
and, you never told me how the story we proposed would end.