Nightmare-tom kaulitz

Nightmare

Darkness wraps around me like a thick blanket. It's cold around me and the only light I can see is the moon reflecting the sun. I feel like I'm being watched. I know that someone is here, but I don't know where.
I turn around on the sidewalk. It's completely empty everywhere. No cars and no people. The light are off in all of the apartment buildings around me. Everything looks dead.

"True..." A familiar voice whispers. It's Bill Kaulitz. I turn around thinking that he'll be behind me, but he isn't there.

"True..." A different, but similar voice whispers. I turn around again, expecting Tom to be there, but nobody is here.
I feel empty. Empty, cold and sad. Something inside me tells me that I've lost everyone I cared about. I don't know when or how I lost everybody, but all that's left of them, are whispers in my head.
All I remember is that my life was going well. Everything was going my way. The band was doing well. I got my dream man. My friends were just starting to accept him and his band, and then suddenly... nothing.
Now everything feels wrong. I don't know where I am of what happened to me.

I'm standing in the middle of a city that I have never seem before, and I'm all alone. It's in the middle of the night and I'm scared, but most of all... I'm confused. What happened to me? Where did I go wrong?

"True..." Tom's voice says again, and this time it's not a whisper. He's behind me.

"Tom..." I reply with a ghostly voice. Relief washes over me. I'm not alone anymore. My love is here for me.
But Tom doesn't look happy. He looks pale and scary. My eyes look to his neck and I see blood. A long line across his neck with blood flowing freely out of the cut, and down his clothes. His white and oversized t-shirt is turning red. Tom is getging weaker.

"Tom!" I shout when he falls to the ground, drained of blood. He hits the sidewalk with a quiet thump and I fall to my knees beside him. I want to cry. I can feel the tears building, but I can't cry. The tears don't come out.
I put my hands on his face and turn him to look at me. His eyes have almost no life in them, and a few seconds later, they are empty. Tom is gone. Bill is gone. Connie is gone. Maggie and Bonnie are gone. Georg and Gustav are gone. All of them are gone. I am all alone in the world.

"ARGH!!!" I wake up with a scream. Tom is still sitting on the couch with me, but he has moved closer. All the other are sitting in chairs or on the other couch, looking at me.

"Are you okay?" Tom asks me, looking deeply worried about me. I take a deep breath and try to forget the nightmare before it starts to really get to me.

"Just a nightmare." I say. "Don't wanna talk about it." I'm not ready to talk about it. Even though it's healthier to tell someone, this feels too personal to tell anyone just yet. I need to process it first. I want to know what this means.
I've always believed that dreams and nightmares mean something, no matter how unrealistic and crazy it seems. Dreams always mean something deep down. This feels like my unconcious mind is trying to warn me about something, but about what?

"Are you okay though, True?" Tom asks. I think about that for a little. I'm not actually sure how I feel, but I know what he wants to hear.

"Yes. I feel rested now. How long did I sleep?" I ask him. He looks around at all of the others, hoping that one of them actually know how long I've been asleep.

"Almost two hours I think." Georg answers, looking at his wrist watch. He seems to be the only one here who still owns a wrist watch and actually wears it.

"Four hours in total. That's pretty good." I say with a smile, knowing that four hours is not enough at all, especially not when we have a show later today.

"I'll go get some food." Bill says suddenly, breaking the silence. He gets up from the other couch and walks towards the table with food.

"Only a little, Bill!" Gustav says as a joke.

"Yeah, yeah yeah, right." Bill says and rolls his eyes at Gustav. When he comes back to us and sits down, he has one slice of pizza, some grapes and a small piece of bread with butter.

"Ugh, that's way too much Bill. Give me the pizza." Georg says and reached out for the pizza slice. Bill grabs his plate and lifts it out of the way so Georg can't reach it.

"Go get your own pizza, dummy." Bill says and sticks his tongue out at Georg like a little child. I can now see his tongue piercing and I can't help but notice Connie staring at him. Staring at him the way I stare at Tom. Oh...
Tom laughs and reaches for my thigh. He squeezes it, making me look at him wondering what he wants now. But I don't see any greed in the way he looks at me now. He just looks happy.

"What's that for?" I ask, looking at his hand grabbinc my thigh. It's not like I don't want him to touch me, I'm just not used to being able to do things like that around our friends. And he has never been so... boyfriend like with me before. When we met, what we wanted was sex and we both knew that.
But now I see something else in the way he looks at me. He looks at me with pure love and it melts my heart.

"I just wanted to... you look hot." Tom says with a smirk. I scoff and roll my eyes. Even though I act like his touch and his compliments don't matter, they mean the world to me. For some reason I'm scared to show it though. I'm scared that I'll start to need him too much. That all of this will get too real for me.

After about two minutes of Tom looking at me with no breaks at all, I feel like there's sometbing he wants. He must want something from me if he looks at me this long. Does he just want my attention?

"Tom... why are you staring?" I ask him, trying not to sound mean. He looks like he's in a trance again but this time, I don't break the trance by talking to him. He's stuck.

"You're so beautiful..." He almost whispers. For some reason, the way he says this while looking at me like this, makes his compliment feel more real. This time it goes deep inside me and echoes. You're so beautiful... I hear it in my head over and over again, and I almost want to cry. I never thought I was worthy of real love, but now I have it, and I've never been so happy before...

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