Ya Allah! (oh god!) This was just getting worse....
I just reached the ER, with my wife in my arms.
Luckily the ER was empty and the doctor took her in immediately sensing the gravity of the situation..
"Pulse is low, Did she have a medicine?" Asked the doctor. "Yes I have it here" I said my voice and hand shaking.
The doctor examine the medicine, analysing it. "I'm sorry, but It a case of Accidental ANTIDEPRESSANT OVERDOSE", He said.
What why was she having it in the 1st place . Why did she not tell me such a big thing. I thought crying in my mind.
"I'm sorry but she is having a cardiac arrest " I froze like my heart had stopped beating.
I cried... She could not have a heart attack She is so young She already goes through heart problems I cant loose her. I just married her 2 years ago. I need more time with her.
Allah!
A nurse rolled her into a room.
She was struggling to breathe now....
I held her hand and caressed her cheek softly. She needed love and care the most right now from me. I was always her safe space.
Fuck
The doctor came and gave her an injection. She was fading out in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything. I felt so useless in those moments. I was crying and sobbing begging her not to leave me, not to die on me.. I needed my wife my love my min min.
The injection wasn't working The doctor called the nurse to bring something .I was too much in pain to hear focusing with all I had on my wife.
An automated external defibrillator (AED)
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I knew it was getting bad, I couldn't believe it...
The doctor was using the device on my wife. Pressing it over the heart...
She was gasping and jerking, Her soft heart struggling to restart.. My heart was hurting for her so bad.
Once, twice... I could feel my heart in my ears.
The only thing that was holding me up was her hand in mine. Limp
I had fallen to the floor I had no idea...
"Sir, She's having a miscarriage too!" Someone said. My entire world was crashing down. She had a baby. I lost it and now I was loosing her .
I looked at her through teary eyes. She was Indeed bleeding.
"Love wake up for me , you were pregnant " I said gently with all I had kissing her hand giving it a light squeeze.
The doctor was doing the last round. She had to wake up . For herself . For me. For us.
Ya Allah When I kissed her bye in the morning she was ok, I'm sure she didn't even know anything about her being pregnant or she would have definitely told me.
But god was on my side today as things started to get better for her. The pulse monitor which was beeping continuously was coming to a regular rhyme slowly
My love was trying to breathe through the oxygen mask now.
Shukran Allah! I cried kissing her hand and clutching it to my chest.
But it wasn't over until was it? It just kept getting worse...
"We need blood ! She is loosing blood fast". "What's her blood group" ,the doctor asked me. "B - B positive " I said in a shaking voice.
"We are out of that" said the nurse. "Take mine , I am O positive ", I said immediately.
The doctor and nurse took my blood. All while my hands not leaving my wife's hand. I could finally breathe when my blood entered her body after a few minutes. The doctor gave her a sedative for rest "She is ok now she was critical but will be Awake in half an hour " I breathed in.
I got up from my cot where they took my blood. I felt a bit dizzy but I wanted to feel her in my arms ,hug her ,feel her heart beating against mine. I was scared out of my mind.
I got up sat on the chair beside her bed and threw my arms around her . Tears streaming down my eyes continuously Finally I was crying in peace .
The nurse asked if I wanted to call someone.. I couldn't trust anyone. It was a case of antidepressant over dose and a miscarriage . She didn't trust anyone else except me in this world. I couldn't share it with anyone yet. I didn't even let the nurse change her bloody clothes. I painfully peeled it off her body. What was left of our baby.🥹
"She took an overdose and she was pregnant I checked her files. She's a heart patient. It made the whole thing more complicated. As soon as the antidepressant kicked in her heart couldn't take the overdose and her body went into shock trying to protect the baby. You brought her in just right time or u would have lost her", Said the doctor to me.
The words were ringing in my ears. I knew she had been thru a lot. Went into therapy in her teens. I didn't have a fuxking clue she was getting bad again.
My heart aches more for her than myself. "This is personal Information, but as you are the official spouse of the patient, you deserve to know this crucial piece of information as it could help you if any such incident occurs in the future . The antidepressant she took is used to treat bipolar patients in extreme situations ". The doctor informed me.
I was confused. What was this ? why didn't I know how could I not know or notice, It is all my fault.
The doctor and I decided not to tell her about the miscarriage if she wasn't in a good state which she was clearly not . I would wait for a few days and tell her when she healed from it all physically . The doctor said if she knows she could get into a shock.
I remembered she told me when we were dating that miscarriage Increased the risk of permanent heart failure.
I just got her back I can't loose her forever.
I hugged her again cursing myself for not being a good friend, a lover or a husband . I was supposed to take care of her always and I failed.almost... I couldn't stop crying.
