Love Heals PS. I'll Always Love You (Soulmates #1)

Shaheer

I returned from the Kabrastaan ( graveyard)with a heavy heart and tired eyes and body.
It was a long day and all I wanted to do was hug my wife and eat with her.

I found her looking at herself in the mirror consciously as she mentally critized her scar.

My heart and eyes softened.

I hugged her from the behind holding her hands lacing them through mine.

"It's beautiful honey,"
"It's ugly" she said her voice shaking.
It hurt me when she did this.
But I would comfort and reassure her every damn time she felt insecure about her body, her scar.

It was a long one
Her childhood scar
When she had an open heart surgery.
My heart clenched and I had cried when she had told me about it.

I kissed her cheek gently and cooed to her.
"It shows how strong and brave you are baby girl. My strong girl."
Tears glistened in her eyes as I reassured her.
"It's not ugly by love. U can never be ugly for me. Then how would a scar be ugly. You're so beautiful so perfect. The scar is a part of your body that I worship. It saved your heart which I fell for and will continue to everyday sweetheart. Scar or not u can never ever be ugly .you are so pretty so beautiful. I wake up every morning falling in love with you head over heels more wondering how a stupid boy like me landed such a gorgeous wife . I love you Narmeen. I love you so much my panda" I was good with words.
Tears rolled down her cheeks and I wiped them away
"I love you too Shah"
She said making my heart skip a beat.
I hugged her tightly.

"Where were you " she asked me.
"In the office" I said.
"I called your office they said you already left"
"I went to the gym"
"U don't have a subscription , stop lying to me"
I gulped .
I never lied to her .
But I couldn't tell her the truth and break her heart.
"Tell me Shaheer" she said sternly.
"I know u are hiding something from me for months and I'm tired of bearing around the bush. Please tell me . She cried

I took her face in my hands and said
"I can't tell you "
"Please tell me " she said tears rolling down her eyes.
"Please understand I can't hurt you more with the truth. I can't let you stress more. It's not good for you "
"Is it good for you look at your face. Your eyes re all puffed up and red. Kyar sudhi badhu Tara Andar Rakhi's( for how long will you keep everything inside you bottled up?) I cant you like this either. Please share with me. Please mane keh Su che (please tell me what is it? ?what is hurting you so much. Mane nai ke to kone kais Shaheer ( if you won't tell me, who else will you tell, )Please tell me Shaheer"

Her words were like a knife to my gut.

I sank to the floor on her floor near her feet and hugged her waist and cried like a baby.
"Shaheer, you are scaring me now please tell me, baby. I can't see you like this please tell me na baba"

I had to tell her now.
"I was at the Kabrastaan"
"Who died " she asked running her hands in my hair comforting me.

Thump thump thump

"Our baby. Narmeen. When u had the overdose episode u were pregnant and u Mia carried. I was at our child's grave." I cried.

I could feel her hands in my hair stopping. I looked up wiping my tears alarmed.

My wife s face was of shock and pain.
No tears or voice.
She slipped down and luckily I caught her in my arms as she fainted.

But that' wasn't it it got worse and worse...
I cupped her cheeks as her eyes started to flutter and rolled back to the back of her head.

She was having a seizure

I immediately put her head on my lap and held her in my arms as she shook just trembled at 1st then she shook like a vibrating machine.
Jerking up From my lap.

I was too shocked.
"Shaheer..." she tried to speak but kept breaking off because of the jerking.

I called the ambulance while I tried to calm her.

"Shh shh breathe it's ok it's ok I'm here baba, just breathe. You're so strong it will be over soon ok" I cooed as tears fell from my eyes.

She held my hand squeezing it tightly.
She was wheezing now struggling to breathe.
I tried running my hand through her hair and rubbed her chest but nothing helped she continued gasping for air.

I couldn't breathe too
Dread pooling in my stomach as I watched my bestfriend my wife the love of my life struggle.

"It's ok it's ok relax try to breathe through your mouth love .ok I'm here I'm here with you ok shhh breathe"
I tried my best to calm her supporting her head with my hand and patting her cheek lightly to keep her awake till help came.

She nodded taking a deep breath from her mouth limping in my arms.
She tried to but ended up coughing violently still shaking.
Her chest heaving up and down crazily.
Fuck I was scared as hell.
She looked pale and so scared she was half conscious and confused.

I caresses her face as she struggled to breathe gasping more and more jerking more and more.
Like a fish out of water.

"Shh shhh don't fight it baby. Let your body loose. Let go it will be over soon don't fight it baby it will just get worse sweetheart. Relax I'm here for you. You're with me . I'm here. I won't let anything happen to you" I said holding her arms lightly as she flapped at her sides so she wouldn't hurt herself.

I had to hold her down my pressing my hand to her chest to avoid her from falling off from my lap as she clenched her eyes trying to fight the convulsions jerking and shaking so violently my heart stopped at the sight it dropped too low.

I watched helplessly as she cried loosing control over her own body grunting clenching her eyes and teeth in pain.

I hoped and prayed to god she won't remember any of this.

The sight was heartbreaking for me but I knew I had to that calm and help her .

Her pulse was starting to fade as she grew more limp and limp in my arms.

"No no no baby breathe breathe breathe for me don't go to sleep don't go to sleep love" I chanted over as over as her eyes fluttered and she struggled to stay Awake.

I tried giving her a mouth to mouth.
It seemed to work till the medics got there and put an oxygen mask on her face and gave her an injection to calm her down.

I just watched as she slowly lost all consciousness and her hand fell from mine it was then I snapped out and held her hand again as the ambulance sped to the hospital.

I clutched her hand to my chest and kissed it while I cried.

Her pulse was normal but all I could feel was dread and pain and scaring.
Blood rushing to my head.
I was hyperventilating and shaking having a Panick and anxiety attack. It was bad and the nurse gave me a epipan and then I calmed down just in time we reached the hospital and they rolled my wife my bestfriend into the ER.