📍LA
⏰1:18am
⚠️ overdose , coma , suicide,mentions of pregnancy, self harm
(this is a very heavy and deep one so if you feel comfortable reading it please click off , thank you ) 🤍
1992
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"call me tomorrow morning you know about the thing " my best friend Lilly asked winking as she was stood outside smiling as I was getting in my cab to go home
I nodded chuckling. "I will Don't worry" and she smiled happily
"I will " I smiled back at her and she closed the door leaving me in the cab by myself .
i watched as we drove off and watched her walk into her front yard and to her door.
it was very late and all I wanted to do was get home ,get out of these fucking heels and see my son and my husband
that's I wanted right now
I've just been to Lilly's 21st birthday party. it was so cool
but unfortunately I couldn't drink with the rest due to me being pregnant. nobody knows expect from Lilly and my other best friend Renee who was my husbands best friends wife.
I'm planning to tell Axl in 2 days time on Saturday. we've been trying for a second baby for a while now.
we already have a 2 year old son W.Axl rose jr. It was axl's idea to try for another but we've been trying for a couple months now and nothing happened sadly but I found out a couple days ago I'm finally pregnant.
I'm so happy and I know Axl will be too
before I knew it thr can was outside my house that I shared with my husband , my son and our 2 dogs
"thank you " I handed the money the money to the driver and he took it
"have a nice night " which he replied giving me a little smile and started to put the money in the little bag down the side of his car
i climbed out of the car and closed the door making my way up to the gates.
i done the code and I walked up my drive way and finally made it to the door
all the lights were off and I walked in and the house was silent. i heard our 2 dogs , king and blade making crying noises and scratching upstairs
i sighed going straight upstairs and I checked on our son just peeking my head through the door.
he was sprawled out in his little toddler bed. his arms were out above his head and the covers were all the way down to his legs.
his favourite dinosaur teddy bear was next to him at his side and his bottle was in his hand above his head
i smiled looking him and I walked in pulling the blue and green dinosaur bedcovers over him.
He stirred a little but didn't wake up.
i grabbed the bottle out of his gently and slowly trying not to wake him because I knew if I woke him up he wouldn't go back to sleep because I knew I was now home
i placed the bottle on the floor next to the bed he was laying on
god he sleeps like his dad. arms and legs out everywhere.
i planted a soft kiss on the side of his head and smiled lightly and walked out the room only leaving it open a little so I could hear if he cries or shouts me or his father during the night or morning which he always did at around 7 or 8 am.
i let out a breath and I noticed our dogs were still scratching at mine and Axl's bedroom door letting out crying nosies
"hey stop " I told him and he didn't. i sighed and I opened the door.
