Ghana - JENSOO - english version

Chapter 14

Jennie

I'm still in shock after hearing Jisoo say she's in love with me. I've blinked several times trying to take it all in, but I can't really understand. My brain feels like it's in a state of denial because I can't believe the words she said.

She can only have been involved with someone else during that time and is in love with that person, not me. It doesn't make sense that Kim Jisoo is in love with me. I shake my head in denial and walk to my room, leaving Bohyun, Hoyeon and Jisoo in the living room.

I sit on the bed and close my eyes, breathing deeply, and feeling my heart beat strong and fast with this adrenaline rush. I don't know what to feel or how to act, it feels like my mind is blank. It's like the ground has been taken out from under my feet or I'm dreaming because nothing is making sense.

Why would Kim Jisoo be in love with me???

I can't find a logical explanation that makes sense for this.

I hear the three knocks, typical of Jisoo, on the open door and I look up to see her standing there with that worried expression on her face. Will she now tell me that she is in love with someone else and has come here to clarify things so that I don't get everything confused?

"What?" I say as I wave the brunette to come closer. She quickly enters and closes the door behind her.

"Sorry." Jisoo says as she sits next to me and I let out a heavy sigh when I hear her.  So was I correct?

"For what?" I don't know why, but if she confirms my thoughts I'll be a little disappointed and frustrated.

"That's not how I wanted you to know." She passes her hand over her face.

"What do you mean?" I furrow my eyebrows and watch her.

"I mean, I hadn't planned yet how I was going to talk about this with you, but that's definitely not the way I wanted to do it." she scratches the back of her head and looks at me "But it's the truth."

"What are you talking about?" I keep staring at her to make my mind believe what is being said.

"About me being in love with you, Jennie." Jisoo says as if it were obvious and with a confused expression as she watches me.

"I..." I take a deep breath "I don't know what to say, honestly. I wasn't expecting that." I run my hand over my face as if that would help clear my thoughts.

"Oh!" is the only thing she says and keeps looking at her feet. An uncomfortable silence falls between us, but I can't think of anything to say. "Okay, fine. I should have been prepared for this anyway."

"For what?" I think I've become a fool because I'm feeling so stupid, but if Jisoo doesn't say it clearly, I don't know if I'll be able to believe or process this information.

"You know..." I continue staring at her and she sighs, still without looking at me "Just in case you don't feel the same way as me, I mean, you don't have to fall in love with me just because I I fell in love with you, I understand perfectly, I guess I just wasn't prepared for it or didn't want to see what was in front of me all the time." she gives a half smile "It's not your fault that I was mistaken, don't worry." Jisoo still waits a few seconds before getting up, but I can't say anything, I just stare at her as she walks to the door.

"Jisoo." I say as soon as she unlocks the door and has her hand on the handle, ready to leave my room.

"Yes?" the brunette says without looking at me. There's something strange in her tone, but I can't identify what it's, not with the stupidity that has taken over my brain.