Andreil | all for the game | aftg

Fuck him

God, how do I hate that man.
The man that always appears to be near me, the man that always has something to say, the man that has such an irritable voice that I would rather drown myself in the river than hear it. And that face, that stupid face which makes me wish I had been born blind. His eyes make me want to puke when he uses them along with those hideous features to pity me with. If I could I would erase him from my memory, from this country, from this world. I would travel to a whole another universe just to escape his piercing gaze, to escape his warm embrace, those lips, that face.

The way that he gently rubs my back as his head is buried in my chest when we are together is stupid. He even continues that movement in his sleep, which is... hideous.

He always wraps himself around my body as if he's preparing to strangle me in an unbreakable chokehold. It's so tight and warm that it makes me wonder if violence really isn't the answer.

How can a human being be so WARM? it feels as if he's constantly overheating. In my opinion, he should be locked in a cold room and then when winter arrives I would take him out and keep him around.  Only for the colder times of the year.

We should keep him locked up or at least limit his time outside. Sometimes I feel as if he was sent to this earth just to terrorize me and everybody else around him by always barking up the wrong damn tree.

I don't understand what keeps me around that idiot and his doings. There's just something addictive about those horrendous eyes. The way they shine when the sun starts rising and light lands on them. The way his whole face looks so soft and calm right before the smile I hate the most appears on his lips and he says "Good morning Drew"

It makes my stomach turn every time. Fuck him and his stupidly pretty face.

I think that we should all be glad that Neil is mostly talk and a little bite since he's got a weirdly strong punch. If he went around throwing punches like that at everyone he would have a murder case on him soon enough. But that's not going to happen.

I wouldn't let that happen.

Even though that idiot makes me want to run myself over with the same car that he bought me, it wouldn't mean that I wouldn't come to help if he needed me to. As I said that stupid smile is just so addictive as well as that face. Fuck... he's an imbecile. But damn, what would I do for him if he just asked.

I have already done many bad things for him but if that's what's necessary to keep him then I would do many more.

I hate the effect he has on me but...that laugh... I've grown to quite enjoy it... something about it brings calm and also makes me feel that nauseous feeling, that seems to happen a lot with him.

I guess he really isn't that bad.

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Decided to drop something for not updating quite a while😋. I've been busy with exams and preparations for moving so I haven't really had the time to write. Laptop's been collecting dust for a while now.

Thank you all for reading! (Especially my pookie wookie dookie bear🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️ yk whooo😘🌺)

Im gonna try to drop a longer chapter in a few days.

Lots of love💗💗