What If

V

It is quite a long day. When I retired and got back to my room, they gave me a folder with all other information I seemed to need to know before everything of the events begin to happen. I mean, that is so sweet of them, ain't it? Knowing that I am new and they must not loose a comrade in this situations. It's not as if I will let myself die, I wont, but precautions are still better than cure.

I placed the folder on the side table and head down to my bed to rest. I feel so drained! This day is just too much!

But minutes passed and I still remain lying down, unable to sleep at all. I feel like no matter how tired I am right no, if sleep would not want to visit me, I'll be awake the whole night. I tried closing my eyes for a long period of time but it really seems like there is something forcing me to open them every now and then. And I really am tired, and bored. And so I stood up, looking around of what I could do aside from forcing myself to sleep.

"Wow!!" That was may initial reaction when a butterfly appeared in front of me. As if hovering over my head and face, it shines with color. All too beautiful to ignore. It has purple linings and gold as the main color as there where also black dots that I could not understand the patter of which. It was sublime, as if something that would have not existed if I am on earth. But this is Agewertia! And for some reason, I am drawn into that butterfly that I mindlessly followed it to nowhere.

This could signal the beginning... or open the path of the end...

I don't know if I am asleep and now dreaming or awake as I felt a looming creepiness in this place. And it was cold! So dark and cold! Scary! And how on Agewertia was I able to be transported here in a blink of an eye? I am sure I did not even blink!

"Just where on Agewertia am I again? And what am I doing here?" I whispered to myself, and I heard it being taken by the wind, echoing it back ever so softly. However, it is not recognizable as it sounds, so I think I am safe- or at least I hope so. I cannot see anyone here, cannot even sense if there is another soul here with me.

All I can see is a fog, or maybe smoke? Or is this mist? Maybe steam? Gosh! I can't even distinguish those all! All I know is that if it is indeed smoke, there would have been some fire here, but I can see none. And if it is fog, my hair would have been as damp as a cloud, but it is not. So, I really do not know. "I hope there are no ghosts here...'

"Oh, come on, self! Only kids believe in ghosts!" I whispered yet again contradicting my own words. Ahh! I do not know what to think! My heart at this point is beating as if it wouldn't be able to the next morning and I feel a lot more dizzier in every minute! I don't like it!

More so with the feeling that someone or something is watching me! It could be a predator deemed to devour me and I don't like the idea of being teared into pieces, okay? And it is too dark! And every time I'm in this types of places I imagine most things in a shape of something scary! Gosh! What is wrong with me? Can I not be a normal citizen and just walk this through and maybe I'll be out in no time? Or am I just kidding myself if I did that?

Nevertheless though, I continued walking, feeling ad hearing my own heartbeat as if it isn't mine is not a good experience, might I say. But if I want to get out of here, I should find my own way out or else I will stay! I don't like to stay!

"WAHH!!" I shouted when I felt like I will slip.

But I did not, thankfully. I just stepped wrong and felt as if I'm about to fall. I thought the whole place is flat, so when I stepped forward assuming that and my foot did not meet the land I was expecting to be there, I thought I was falling. Do you know that feeling? I put on full force onto that step then somehow it felt as if I lost zero percentage of it.