Code Blue

11

Irene's POV

"L--lis-lisaaa"

"Irene! Irene! Wake up!" My eyes shot wide open upon hearing my name. What happened?

"Thank God. You were having a nightmare. Are you okay?" I blinked my eyes many times trying to comprehend what is happening

I recognize this voice. I know this person

And when finally my vision became clear, I finally uttered words

"Seulgi"

"Yes it's me. Jackson brought us home. He doesn't know your apartment and I'm too drunk to tell him where it is. So..... are you okay?" She asked softly and I can't help but to cry

"Seulgs... it--it hurts" all I can do is cry to my heart's content. Seulgi engulfing me in a tight hug isn't helping either. Its just making me cry more

My chest is hurting and I'm having a trouble breathing. I didn't even know that love can hurt like this. Despair is coursing through my blood and numbness is clouding my eyes. I've already seen many situations in the hospital but all I can think is that nothing beats what I'm feeling right now. It's like my heart has been torn apart. Not crushed, not shattered, but torn. Ripped

"I---i love --i l-love her so much..... so mu--much Seulgs"

"I know"

There are a lot of things I've learned last night. That Lisa always go to Jennie when she has the chance. She always gives her a ride either going to the university or going home. That they are always together lately. That Jennie cooked for her

That day when I saw the lunch box Lisa ate, it was the one given by Jennie but she didn't eat the one I gave, AGAIN

I was contented before. I've always thought that even though Lisa is ignoring me and are not accepting the things I'm giving her, eventually she'll realized that she loves me too because there are times that I really see her caring for me and maybe, just maybe, she's having feelings too. I was contented like that

But now, there's another person in the picture. One that I was not even aware of. It feels overwhelming and the way they interacted last night, they seem close despite their claim that they only met recently

Jennie said that they don't have feelings for each other but its quite the opposite when I see them interacting

Or I don't know? Jennie seems nice and is telling the truth

But for Lisa, she's still as mysterious as ever. She seems very lively and bright on the outside, very outgoing and friendly but only a few people know what she's really thinking

I've been her friend since med school and I liked her long enough but I still can't read her

I'm overthinking. I feel like I'm over reacting. I feel like I'm being emotional for nothing because Jennie and Lisa aren't even together. But I don't know, I feel threatened?

Like why is it like this? Why do I have to try so hard just to get her attention but Jennie is getting it when she says she doesn't even want it? Why is life so unfair? All these questions are running in my mind right now

But all I can do now is cry

Jennie's POV