Our marriage was arranged. We started having feelings for eachother after he tied knot around my neck. I thought it was forever but the we were divorced. Why did we? Why did we lose everything before everything could begin. I want to be with him but...
I was never in love with anyone in my life until our parents decided to get me and Abhi together in life forever and ever. But then the forever didn't last for long time.
We had our cute little moments every now and then living in our little bubble. But then came a huge blow in our life.
Abi never told me the way Amma behaved with her but then later Appa told me whatever happened in our house in my absence. How my Abhi was treated and verbally abused by my Amma.
Yes I know what my mother did was wrong and if I was in Abi's father's place then I wouldn't have let things go like this. I would have created more rucks until I would have seen the end of that family.
But though still I wanted to live with Abi and we both were facing lots of problems from both of our parents. Whenever I tried to speak to her , her father would sit beside her with her mobile on speaker and listen to our conversation. Later he abided both of us from contacting eachother.
On the other side my mother started blackmailing me either to select Abirami or her. How can I make her understand that both are my life.
Things escalated and after three months we met eachother in court for divorce. I knew it well that my mother won't let me and my Abi live happily so atleast I wanted her to live happily with someone else peacefully.
So I decided to give her the divorce which our parents decided. I knew her well, she must have been waiting for my single word that I would never divorce her in this life time.
I know I hurted her in the worst way possible of telling everyone present there that I have never touched . It was lie. It was all lies that I told everyone so that atleast would never point her as someone who has been used by her ex-husband and thrown out when she gets married to someone else. I don't want anyone to point on her.
I broke her heart so that she could have a peaceful life. I have dreamt of falling in love with her, having kids with, growing old with her and it was a never ending list but in the end I decided to let those dreams be just dreams. Though it was painful for both of us it was meant to be.
After divorce I came home very less it just became once in a while. But whenever I come I will never fail to get a glimpse of her before leaving my home.
And now my mother wants me to get remarried again. Though I have told her thousand time it's a no from my side she never stays calm. So this time I told her yes to visit the girls house. While we visited their family I told them on their face that I have no idea of getting married this life time and I have dugged a grave for those kind of feelings. I will never let anyone know that it is and will be only for my Abirami.....
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