Written in tears

Love Songs

I sat on the floor of my old school,
only my jacket to keep away the cold,
Taylor Swift playing through my headphones,
and I wished that I forgot.
Wished I forgot everything that made me love,
'cause I didn't love anymore.
'Cause I wasn't happy, as I'd forgotten how to smile,
and I didn't have a reason to laugh at stupid jokes.

My heart broke with every love song,
but I told myself it didn't matter,
that it was OK that I had forgotten how happiness felt like
and that it was fine that I was too scared of crying as to try and find it.

So I breathed in and I ran.
I ran faster and faster until everything hurt.
'Cause in the pain of my body I'd forget the pain of my soul,
and in my sleep and dreams I found a world of love.
In which I was still happy
and I did more than just study.
In which I knew who I was
'cause I'd been brave enough to ask.

It was just when I woke up,
that I realized
that it didn't matter
if I didn't cry.
'Cause I was alone
on my own crumbling world
and if I tripped and fell,
I wouldn't return.