Written in tears

In my head

In my head, you come across,
then you stop and nod "hello",
and, like it's been you all along,
I feel your smile, so bright and warm.

Just like that, we start to talk,
you compliment the way I look,
I think it's funny, 'cause my heart
races when I look at you.

In my head, you look so nice...
you tell me jokes, you make me laugh.
I give you a soft, shy smile
and I would swear I've seen you blush.

Time goes by, and now we're friends,
both afraid to take that step
Yeah, we know we're something else,
but we don't yet know its name.

So we act normal, though we're not.
Our hands touch and we both jump
and I feel like I'm gonna fall
everytime my eyes meet yours.

In my head, we're both so dumb...
We've known for ages we're in love,
yet we're too afraid to talk;
we know nothing, we're so young.

We make excuses in our heads,
"I will ruin it", I say.
You would tell me, but you're scared,
you think I don't feel the same.

We keep pretending nothing happens,
pretend there's nothing going on,
but the end of grade is coming...
I hope you'll ask me to prom.

Seems everyone had the same thought,
'cause they're all dancing 'round you,
and yet you keep shoving them off,
but will you ask me out or not?

In my head, you finally do
and you don't say "just as friends".
So... I'll get to dance with you!
And I don't know what I'll wear!

In my head, you pick me up.
I say I'm nervous and you laugh.
"You look so stunning", you say, then smile.
Add, "don't you worry, we'll be fine".

In my head, we walk inside.
They look at us, your hand's in mine.
We dance all night, there's only us,
yeah, we're the talk of the whole dance.

In my head, I walk you home.
"Tonight was fun", I say by the door.
You tuck my hair behind my ear and your hand rests on my cheek,
our eyes locked, I think I'm crying, as you say that you love me.

That it's been me all along,
ever since you said "hello".
That I caught you gaze that first day
and I've owned your heart since then.

So I say "I love you, too.
Oh my God, I really do.
With you here, there's no more blue.
I would spend my life with you"

In my head, you finally kiss me
and it's like I'd thought it'd be.
Yeah, it has my head spinning
and my heart skips a beat.

In my head, it starts to rain,
but we act like we don't know.
You grab my hand, we start to dance,
like you are mine, like I am yours.

In my head, our clothes are soaked,
so you say "let's go upstairs".
I've been here a thousand times
yet it feels like somewhere else.

You give me your T-shirt, I put it on,
we lay in bed, feel your arms around.
Whisper "I love you", feeling so tired...
so I let go and close my eyes.

When I open them, I'm in my room,
and I feel so cold without you.
But you're not there, you never were.
'Cause you're not real, you're only in my head.