Lunch friends without the high cal
I used to have lunch and dinners with this group
They were kind
I didn't tell you about the other words I had in that sentence
It was find someone to love me, kill myself or find a new friendship
And I sort of did
I remember vividly how I barely spoke about the events that took place for me to be in a psych ward, i'd get asked why are you still fat or you should have gone to jail
I guess II had a routine and was too invisible that it held suspicion
I even thought they should also be in jail
One time one of the guys who could have been a cold case cop blurted it out in the evening around 6 pm
I don't know what you're talking about and it was after a couple reprisings
I met one of them briefly on my walk to Olso City center
But it was Johan collects plass
So it was only brief we bumped into eachother
I also met them once when I investigated gaustad at 19
I wore black jeans a dark army green top my hair was down
I wore no makeup
I was walking far back then
She was being bullied in the kitchen by a guy
She looked a bit different
I guess I was supposed to find them
In a weird way
All of them
Even though I left after being told I was not going to be on adhd meds and they sort of left me due to my producing and always cancelling plans
I noticed I was the black token friend
From the very beginning it wasn't their fault they were white
I even said it wailed it in a way
It was just a happy accident
Normally I feel like people are meant to be in our lives
From the very beginning i knew them a bit from childhood in a flashback
But maybe that was a cruel joke after my meds weared out from God
But tbh they had their own lives to think about
I would walk home with one of them by the distance every once in a while on the tram
It was dark most days because of the winter night
But it was a duty to have a hobby for me
Around that time I was on a lot of meds up and down
I used to also go to horse therapy
But they said I was too happy and wasn't sick but later found out one them had told them to stop letting me go I guess that was shunning me a bit
Before that we barely spoke
I saw a dead horse once
It felt like it had happened before
