Somewhere in between 3

21.

(Start the song „lonely" von Skyfall beats)

Jasmin was devastated.She didn't know what to do.
She had just done the most forbidden thing you could ever do in a relationship.
She had cheated on him and with none other than Prowler.
It was an hour later, and he still hadn't returned. Wherever he had gone.
She was alone now and she felt empty. She felt drained, exhausted.
Everything around her was spinning.It was as if the world was collapsing.
But this time it was her inner world.She had no idea what to do.
She had to talk to Hobie, she knew that.
But how could she do that without making him angry?
Of course he would get angry. After all, she had hurt him. Very much so.
She would never forgive herself, never.

She tries to get up from the sofa but can't manage it.
At least she managed to get dressed again, but everything else was too heavy.
It felt like there was a deep stone inside you, pulling her further and further down.
The couch was like a sea she was in danger of drowning in.
Anger, remorse and sadness spread through her.
Tears rolled uncontrollably down her face.Once again, her fingers began to tremble.
Can't it finally stop? I want it to stop.
Her life seemed to be on the brink. One more step and she would fall. She would fall deep, so deep that she could never get out again. Never again.
Her feelings of guilt would have to join forces with her already unstable psyche. Something inside her was broken. She thought that once she was in her world, things would get better.
But nothing seemed to be getting better. Neither she nor her planet. She was just as lost as Universum.
If only I had listened to Miguel. Then none of this would have happened.
Then I wouldn't be at this point and I wouldn't be regretting every decision I made.
I might not be at Hobby now, but I would be happier.
One little mistake led to everything being destroyed.
Just everything.
The only thing she could hope for now was the Prowler. Helped her save her planet.
Even if she was lost right now, it shouldn't be the planet.
There was still hope for him, but not for her.

A short time later, Prowler returned.
"Come on, we have to go," he urged her. His voice was suddenly so cold and monotonous.
She no longer understood anything.
But she hadn't done so all this time anyway. She was nothing more than a shell with no consciousness and no control over herself. It took so much strength to push herself out of the sofa and stand up.
But after a few attempts, she managed it.
Prowler came to her and put an arm under her shoulders for support.
"We have to go up to the mountain. I'll tell you what to do there."
They set off, but Jasmin wasn't feeling well. He had changed his behavior again so suddenly.
Had he perhaps just been lying to her the whole time?
Was it all just a scam?
She didn't have time to think about it.
That was her only hope. Her last hope.

(Listen to the song „Heart of Courage" by Two steps from hell as the outro of this chapter. Imagine that Jasmin tries to gain back her power by the hope that she can save her planet)