🎶 Say Something — A Great Big World, Christina Aguilera 🎶
When I woke up the next morning, I expected the space next to me to be empty and cold, but I still felt Pedri's warm body pressed against my back and his strong arms slung around my body. I had also expected to have nightmares and bad dreams but instead, I slept like... not a baby, babies don't sleep well, except if they're sleep-trained and angels like my kids. Oh shit, my kids. I shifted but when I turned around, I saw Pedri already looking at me and I winced a bit.
"Hey" he said softly and stroked a strand of hair away from my face. I shifted away a bit and started breathing more heavily, with Pedri immediately noticing and he quickly left me some space in his huge bed as I tried to calm down a bit.
"Sofi and Blanca... what time is it?" I asked as I was calming down a bit again.
"8.30" he replied calmly, eyeing me attentively to find out in which state I was in.
"The girls need to be picked up at 1" I said. Thankfully they had been at my parents' and they were doing the nursery run this morning. Fuck, I still needed to tell them what happened.
"I... should call my parents, I..." I started but stopped when the tears came with flashbacks of Marcos putting the trigger of his gun onto my temple.
"Shh... Isa... I'm here" Pedri whispered as he put his arm around me, softly stroking his hand on my back. Instinctively, I leaned my head against his shoulder and felt his soft and warm skin against the tip of my nose.
"What can I do for you?" I have to leave for training in 30 minutes but I can pick up the girls on my way back?" he offered and I cried even more at how good he was being with me.
"You... don't have car seats, they're... in mine... that's..." I stammered but he shushed me, still holding me in his warm embrace.
"Don't worry, I'll grab a taxi to get your car and will take the girls back here. Fer will be at home and take care of you, please eat whatever he cooks and if you want he can drive you home to get some stuff. You shouldn't be alone now, Isa" he said in his soothing, deep voice and I was too weak to argue against anything.
"But I have to work, I..." I stammered.
"I will call Hector and tell him you're out for the next week, my career won't end if you don't answer to e-mails for a few days" he chuckled, trying to lift the mood a bit.
"I have my work phone anyways, I can do the most urgent stuff" I sniffled and nodded.
"Ok. I'm getting dressed now and then we can go downstairs for some quick breakfast for me and a rich, nutrient one for you" he said and smiled at me as he stood in front of his closet. Seeing him there, undressed... Dirty thoughts went through my head but I remembered that I was on my period, so I scrapped them again. Thank God I was on my period, these adventures with Pedri were getting a bit out of hand and I definitely didn't want to end up knocked up by him.
He extended his hand to me when he was ready, but I somehow felt reluctant to take it. My brain was closing in on me - all men had always left me, he wasn't going to be the exception. So I just stood up and walked ahead, down the stairs. I felt his presence close behind me and I stopped in my tracks to turn around and see his face - my feelings were so strong for him. His face was pain-stricken and I could see that he was hurt by my behaviour, even though he tried not to show it. He had been nothing but caring and protective of me and this was how I was repaying him. I was a bitch and deserved every bad thing coming my way.
Fer was already in the kitchen, whipping up all sorts of stuff and I just sat down at the table, staring blankly ahead of me. I did notice the boys exchanging worried glances, which didn't surprise me. Pedri sat down next to me and ate some sort of banana yogurt bowl, all while taking a side-glance at me every two seconds.
"And here we go for you, omelet with ham and cheese. Do you prefer coffee or tea?" Fer asked as he set the plate in front of my face.
"I'll do it" Pedri said as he stood up and put away his now empty bowl. He walked to the coffee machine and prepared a perfect latte macchiato. As he stood there, he buried his head in his hands, he was looking really down and that sight broke my heart.
"Here" he said softly as he placed the mug next to my plate and put his hand on my shoulder. "I've got to go now but I'll be back with the girls" he told me and bowed down to kiss my head. He lingered for a second and I looked up into his eyes, locking in with them for a few seconds until he shot me a small smile and brushed through my hair quickly before leaving.
Fer and I were left alone and ate in silence, but unlike his brother, he was way less subtle.
"Pedri's got it bad for you. He's in loooove" he swooned. I didn't know if it was an effort to try and cheer me up or if he was just speaking without thinking, but I just stared at him incredulously.
"You don't see how impossible it is? The age gap, the family situation, my mental state?!" I asked him, slightly upset. However, he just raised his eyebrows.
"I just see two people who have a very deep affection for each other" he replied dryly and I crossed my arms in annoyance.
"And what is the plan now? Is Pedri locking me up here and trying to play family now that my mind is fucked again after a man close to me died?" I asked raising my eyebrows. No, no, no, fuck, why was I being such a bitch?! Tears welled up in my eyes.
"You know what, Isa? You're so desperately trying to see the problem in Pedri, the age gap, the girls, the fame,... When in reality you are the problem. So start working on yourself or you'll end up all alone in the end" he shot back sharply before standing up and walking away from me.
