OFFICE ROMANCE. (BxB)

Chapter 15. MISSING HIM!

Three weeks later ,

Day in, day out , almost a month has passed without Julian stepping in my office , besides, he's rarely in the company, just for few hours and disappears to so called meeting with clients , and he never comes back.

I hate the fact that I gave him permission to do that again , and I hate the fact that I sent him away again that day.

Every time that I feel like I just I want to hear him or see him in my office , his words pops in my mind,, 'Fine Mr. CEO, am done with you.'  It seems he wasn't kidding about it.

Within this few weeks , I've made up my mind, I can't denie it anymore , something about him is developing in me , I can't stop it either , so I want to bring him back close to me , I was thinking about it almost all night yesterday and I decided that am going to make him my secretary, I'll promote ms. Cooper to some other position so that she doesn't feel bad.

Problem solved!

"Adams.. are you in ? Can I come in?" Unmistakable voice startle me , though not the one am yearning to hear now.

I can't believe she still came hear even when I told her not to come to the office during work hours , she doesn't seem like she understands.

Meredith Amell , the lady my mother has managed to tie on me, with... 'Adam Smith! I want grandchildren to keep me company now that you killed my son died. If you are too busy to get a wife I'll find one for you!'

Every time she says that , it kills me , last time I was having a breakdown because her , Julian came to the rescue , diverting my mind , making me completely forget how messy I felt inside.

Meredith, she's beautiful, funny and all that , every man would die for her but I guess not me because ever since my mom introduced us to each other, when am with her , all I think about is someone else .

Wishing that he was there instead of her .

"I've really missed you." She says hugging me while am still seated. I would really stop her from hugging me right now because I don't like it but am not that heartless.  "You said you'll call me , I've been waiting for so long but you never did , so I came to check on you even when you asked me not to , but I promise I won't distract you while working , I'll sit quietly." She talks too much just like Julian , only that she's not him.

And I never said she could stay , so what's with , 'I'll stay quiet as you work?!'

"If I don't call that means am busy and for that reason , I don't think you should stay because I don't even know how long I'll be working , besides , I took you to lunch an hour ago , so what's with missments now?" She's making say more than I always do.

" But I still miss you , don't yo..."

Suddenly the door opens cutting her off , It couldn't be that someone knocked but we didn't hear , so someone just barged in , and that someone can't be someone else other than that one person.

Meredith is still hugging me even when the door is gradually opening and someone talking... it's as if she wants people to know that she can be close to me and they can't.

"What up H.H , I've  realized that even with all the fun around the world , I would still mis..." he stops suddenly after seeing the scene before him .

Suddenly my mind goes wild , wanting to know all he wanted to say , even when I might have an idea of what he was gonna say , I still want to hear from him. 

My mind scream to him 'You would still what? C'mon say it.. you'll still miss me ? You finally remembered me , didn't you ? Ugh! Why did Meredith come in the office today , she has ruined this! Actually ruined everything.'

Lately I feel like , when someone opens up my mind and sees what goes on in it , they would never accept that that's my brain , when people look at me and they behave like am some kind of a god , it really doesn't suit me anymore.

"Holy crap am sorry , I am so.. sorry , I didn't mean to barge in." He says closing the door and going back out. He is making this a really big deal when, why is he overeating like that!

"Julian , come back here." I find myself calling him by his first name for the first time. He doesn't come back.

" Excuse me..." I say pushing Meredith aside , but not in a rude way.

I can't believe he just caught me in that position , now he's gonna think that I have someone!

" Why are you tense , even if he spreads the news to the company that he saw you , so what ? We're together, aren't we?"

You don't understand anything just stop talking! I scream inside.

" How comes he didn't knock anyway? That was rude , do you always let your employees enter your office whenever they please and without even knocking?" She goes on and on.

"Meredith am sorry but I love someone else, and I don't want to waste your time." I say out of the blue , I wasn't planning to say that, it just came out.  "I think we should stop seeing each other, it's really time wastage."

" What ?! "

" Am sorry."

" Is it that gu.."

" No! Not him, it's just that, he is friends with the person I love and he might tell her." I explain a lie.

She makes a scene complaining here and there, how she loves me and how she's going to tell my mother what I've done to her , but I don't care as long as I don't waste her time.

She later leaves .

Just as expected, My mother calls me moments later.

"I heard that you love someone , is it true ?  If so then bring her home already or you'll have to marry Meredith!" She says immediately I pick up .

" How can I bring her home , I haven't even told her how I feel  , you're not dying now mother , once I manage to tell her how I feel and ask her out , I'll bring her home ."

" Better make it quick."

" Yes"

She ends the call, just like that , no greetings , no nothing, we haven't seen each other in a month now and she doesn't care , she will never either.

Putting down my phone my mind goes back Julian.
He called me that again ! H.H , just what on earth does it mean? Ever since he called me that the first time , I've been searching on the many websites but I never found anything that makes sense , I even asked ms. Cooper and she said , she couldn't find what it stands for , considering that he is using it as a nickname!