OFFICE ROMANCE. (BxB)

Chapter 26. CROSS_DRESS

After we freshen up , I order Chinese food , I was able to convince Julian to stay tonight, I have something I've been meaning to tell him but am so afraid of his reaction.

"Julian"

" Mmh?" He raises his head from my chest looking up at me , we were just relaxing and cuddling in my bed.

" There's a big problem.." I say feeling terrible because of the situation we're in.

" What is it?" He asks sitting up.

" My parents wants me marry someone and it has kind of gone gone too far so I don't know how long I can keep stoping them."

"What is this now? Just when I thought 'finally everything is great.. you ruin it. What are you talking about? Adam, how old are you? How can your parents decide what you do with your life , especially marrying you off to the person you don't want? And you let them do it? You are just calm about it?! Or maybe you want that marriage and now you're just finding an excuse to make me leave you alone, because I don't understand...  how on earth can they choose for you?"

"Julian, if that was the case, why would I ask you to be my boyfriend? Ever since my brother passed away all their attention has been on me , all I've ever wanted is to respect them and help them get over that pain of losing a child , I've been that little boy who does everything that they want me to do , and I have a reason for that Julian, my parents are both weak and anything small can knock them off , I can't loose anyone else , not even you Julian, even if it's not dying I just want you around me... I won't be able to take it if the three of you won't be with me."

" Then how can I be around you if you're going to have someone else by your side?! Why does it have to hurt so much for us to be together?! How about just telling them the truth, that you're ga..."

" I can't , atleast not now." I cut him.

" so?"

" They are not forcing me to marry someone I don't want. I mean,  to them that's what it seems like because they asked me to take a woman to them , the one I want , by tomorrow, and if not then that's when they are marrying me off to the one they got for me, they want someone that will inherit all these , they want grandchildren , and also my dad doesn't want me to end up like him or even worse, by immersing myself in work and end up lonely."

He doesn't say anything so I go on . "I had an idea and I know It won't sound good to you but if we have to keep what we have between us then we'll have no choice but risk ."

" What is it ?" He asks .

" I want to buy time by taking someone to them tomorrow. "

" Okay!" he says standing up as if he is done, and has nothing else to say to me , I could literally see the pain in his eyes , before he walks away I let out the part that has it all .

" And that someone is you ."

He turns looking me with a confused face. "How can it be me ?! Man.. you're so confusing, I think am gonna go crazy with all this! Why on earth did I let myself fall in love?! Because this... ?! I... I can't take it.."

" You regret loving me? Well me too , you know why? Because if I didn't fall in love with you I wouldn't care if they bring me a stranger to marry, I would have just done it without care and give them what they want! So do you wanna do this or you don't?" I don't know why he has to force me to speak to him like this! I don't like it!

" How can you take me to them when am a man and you say you can't let them know you are gay"

" Cross_dress" I blurt out .

" Am sorry what?! You want me to cross_dress?! Okay, you've gone too far , am not doing that ! I can't..! I can't do that! If it has come to this point then let it be , there are a lot of people who love each other but never got to be together and they didn't die , they are still alive , doing just fine , we can do it too."

" How can you say that? Please do this for us , I promise I'll get us out of this situation, give me some time, I can't loose you, I keep telling you that , you have no idea how dark my life has been , you are the only light that lights it up Julian if you walk away from me then I don't know how to live anymore. So am literally begging you right now , can you please understand me , you are the one who had just said that we should understand the situation of each other, that we shouldn't stay away from each other so why are you talking like this again, didn't you mean what you just told me like an hour ago?"

" Until when? We can't keep playing hide and seek all our lives."

" Am not sure yet but I promise I'll make it quick and use this chance that you've given me effectively , I really hate that am making you go through all this , I really do."

"I get it , I know I overeat sometimes but it's just that , you made me feel like we can loose what we have in a blink of an eye and I think I just feel insecure , I don't want to feel like how I felt again."

"I promised you that I'll never make you feel like that again , trust me on that."

"Okay , if you say so." He says hugging me which gives me a little bit energy.

" Thank you My love"

"No need to thank m... wait a second , 'my love?!' is it the same with M.L ?"

"Absolutely "

"So you are saying that you started calling me this without even me having any clue that there was some sparks between us!?"

"Definitely, now your turn , tell me what H.H mean"

"Figure it out "

"But I just told you what M.L means to me"

"I've figured it out myself , you haven't told me "

"Okay fine , at least give me a clue."

"It's not something cool so stop being so curious, I started calling you that those days when you were a nuisance to me , so you can be sure that it's not something good."

"Then I don't want to hear it but don't call me that anymore."

"Alright Hellhound." He says leaving me dazed .

"What?! " he laughs at my reaction. "You call me that?!"

"You were so fierce those days , I couldn't help it ."

"You seriously gonna pay for that." He slips away from my arms when he realizes that am gonna do something to him , and now we're running around like small kids.