Meant To Be..

💐 Chapter 17

< °°Y/N's P. O.V°° >

"Maybe, you should take the risk.."

The words were stuck in my mind. Was it really worth it to take the risk? Should I really give him, give us and give myself a chance.

I don't really understand what is it between us. It's not just lust. Wanting him to look at me with care and affection in his eyes, wanting him to pay attention to me or to spend time with me truly shows that I want more than just to sleep with him.

But what if taking the risk meant losing everything? The walls I had built around my heart were tall and fortified, designed to protect me from pain and disappointment. Letting him in, allowing myself to be vulnerable, was terrifying. Yet, the thought of his gentle touch and the way his eyes seemed to see right through me was intoxicating. Every time we were together, I felt a spark, a connection that I couldn't ignore. It wasn't just about physical attraction; it was about feeling understood, valued, and seen.

I sighed, running my fingers through my hair, lost in my thoughts. Maybe I was overthinking it. Maybe I should take the risk.

That night, as I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, I made a decision. I would give it a chance. I would open my heart, even if it meant facing the possibility of getting hurt. Because the potential for love, for something real and meaningful, was worth the risk.

The next morning, I woke up with a renewed sense of determination but also nervousness. I dressed carefully, wanting to feel confident and composed. As I walked to the restaurant where we've been having breakfast ever since we came here, my heart pounded in my chest, a mix of excitement and nervousness. What if he rejects me?

When I saw him sitting at the table, engrossed in his phone, my resolve strengthened. I approached him, and he looked up, his face lighting up with a smile, something that you'd see rarely, but that made my heart flutter.

"Hey," I said, trying to keep my voice steady.

"Hey," Jungkook replied, his eyes twinkling with curiosity.

"Did you order already?" I asked, trying to ease my mind.

"You look like you have something on your mind." He said.

I took a deep breath, gathering my courage. "I do. I wanted to talk to you about us."

He locked his phone, giving me his full attention. "I'm listening."

"I've been thinking a lot about what we have," I began, choosing my words carefully. "And I realized that I want more...I want to see where this can go, if you're willing to take that risk with me."

There was a moment of silence as he processed my words. Then, he reached out to take my hand.

"I've been hoping you'd say that," he said softly. "Because I feel the same way, but I thought that you wouldn't want to have me in your life in any way."

Relief and joy washed over me as his words sank in. In that moment, I knew that taking the risk was the best decision I could have made. We had no guarantees, no promises of a perfect future, but we had each other. And that was enough. I cannot put any burden or additional responsibilities on him or on our relationship. After all, I want him to be with me, for me, for us and not to be responsible for my fears. That is my responsibility and for now all I should do is trust him and trust myself.

"I'm scared, nervous even, it's been a while since I've been in a relationship. It took me so long to accept that what I felt for you wasn't just lust. But now, I've confessed and I want to do this right, Jungkook, I don't want to mess this up."