06. Isert Mommy, is not stick

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We continue with the questions, and Julia assures me that I am fine. Then we move on to the naked stuff. I got out of bed and put my shirt back while Julia was pressing a few buttons to make the bed more 'gynecologic' then pediatric, she was basically just getting the stirrups out and turnig the bed so it would be in a 'sitting possition'. Aurora was fascinated by this and was just a matter of time until the questions arrive "But why does it have this funny things poking out of the bed?" she asks and Julia got her um on the bed distracting her while i was taking my clothe off "These are the stirrups, I use them so your mommy can be more comfortable while I examine her" She explains pedagogically for Aurora. They spend a few minutes discussing about that, just the amount of time that i need to get completely out of my clothes and ready to be exposed. My daughter asks to be on Julia's lap so she could help her, but we just agrred that it would not be a good idea, lets keep this as private as possible. So she is going to just walk around in the room or maybe sit down and read a book.

I got up on the bed and prepare myself to be in the most exposed position ever, then Julia comes over me and put a white fabric over my legs, which i appreciate her doing it. When I'm completly set up, Julia go and sit over on her stool between my legs and put some latex gloves too "Tay, i'm going to start just by taking a look, then we're doing the pelvic exam and the pap smear. I'm going to do as quick as possible, you just lay down and relax" Julia says and prepare herself to enter the cave. I hate these things so much, but it comes with being a woman and my kid is here so i'm not goint to make a scandal, because we're here to show a good exemple, but me and pelvic exams, we don't get along so well. The good part is, that Julia already knows me, and know how I feel about all of this, and she also know how to deal with it, not that i'm going to be able to relax completely, but definitely i'll be more relaxed than with other doctors. Suddenly I can feel her fingers inside me, so i just close my eyes and pray to be over, when it comes to these type of exam, i just prefer to lay down in silence, and let the doctor do whatever she needs to do. But Aurora had other plans for today, she's not such a quiet person "Mommy's sissy is bigger than mine" She was behind Julia looking between my exposed boby and then down on her pants. Now i'm red, as red as someone could be, and Julia is trying not to laugh, trying hard "Everything in your mom is bigger than on you, her feet, her hands, head, and her private parts too, but as the name say private let's give your mom some privacy, okay Aurora, you can stay over there with the books, or you can sit on the other stool that i have, and stay on mommy's side, what do you want?" As Julia explains to her, she get up of the stool and make her way to the cabinets, problably getting some torture supplies to kill me. Aurora says that she wants to sit with mommy so we do that, Julia get her a stool as well, that is high enough so she can be on my side and lay her head in my chest. 

We got through the majority of the exam in silence, which i'm surprise about, since Aurora is in the room, i guess she's just tired, we all are, it's been a long day. But when Julia starts to open the speculum inside me, that's when I give up on the neutral face and some pain expression starts to aper, this thing hurts as hell, i hate doing this, I can feel all of my walls streting, and is NOT in the good way "Mommy why are you doing funny faces?" Auroras asks looking at me and than over Julia, trying to see something, but this is the purpose of the fabric over my legs "Julia is torturing mommy, that's why i'm doing funny faces" I'm not the one to blame, this is Julia's fault "Your mom is being dramatic Aurora, i'm just examinating her, to see if everything is doing well, just like i did with you. You were such a big and brave girl, you didn't even cry, tell your mom to be brave just like you" Julia says and when i'm about to complain she stick those swabs inside me, and the only thing that comes out of my mouth it's a pain groan "Mommy you'll be fine, Julia just need to check on you, te see if you're healfy and cleaning well in the shower, you don't need to be scared, it dosen't hurt and i'm here with you" Aurora reptes the exact same things that I told her, when she was getting her exam done. I feel horrible, I feel pain, but I cannot show that to my daughter, so as much as I want to scream at her, about how my exam is way more painful then hers, I'm not doing that. So I put a smile on my face and we continue until the pap smear is over.

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