Sugar & Kisses || Larry ||

Nightmares - 10

The little boy just looks up at him with confused eyes, Harry can see that the boy isn't listening, maybe because he is in this sleepy state. He decides to carry the little boy over to their bunk beds, almost without bothering the other guys. They don't say anything when Harry easily lifts Louis up and carries him out of the little room.

"Mmmm" Louis whines, not sure why he is whining, he just felt he had to express his discomfort, he can just feel that Harry is going to leave him alone, and he is not alright with that!

"What's up little one?" Harry says, slowly nudging the curtain on the little boy's bunk away. He takes a glance down and smiles, Louis is looking oh so angel-like, his hair is all mussed and messy, but his skin is free of any worry-wrinkle, he can just see how Louis is less worried and anxious. Especially in this one moment when he is being so brave and less self-conscious.

"Do you know how proud I am of you, huh?" He says Harry knows he won't remember this or fully grasp what he means by it, but he needs to say it out loud before he implodes. He just feels so much love and care for this little boy, and what he has achieved is amazing. Louis has had such a hard time with life, and now he is here, a part of the biggest boy band and willingly trying to better himself. He is actively working to be a better person and to be safer and happier, which makes Harry oh so proud. He can't explain it with just words.

"You are such an angel, even if you don't fully understand what I'm saying right now, you need to know how important you are to this band, and to me... Mostly me." He says while he rubs the little boy's back, hugging him close to his chest.

"Tanko..." Louis says, pacifier still in mouth and his face all mushed up against the taller man's chest. Louis means it, he can feel his big boy thoughts come more which makes what Harry said, mean even more, he just can't express himself in a way that works. So he pushes up against the man, hoping his closeness would work.

Harry smiles down at the boy, hoping that he really did understand it, he wants Louis to know no matter what happens he will stay with him. Through whatever. Even hell.

"Let's get you ready for bed baby boy," he says when he's been standing swaying for a few minutes, the boy's pacifier almost falling out. He places the boy on the bunk and starts getting ready for sleep.

"Otay, i sleepy," Louis says with a yawn, he really needs sleep after today. He has had so many big feelings, and so much stress, that he isn't sure how to deal with all of it. Especially now that he can't take a breath the same way he could before. This meant going to get a cigarette, it was his favourite way to breathe. When he tries to think about it, it feels like his mind can't fully remember the feeling, can't remember why he did it, all he can remember is how bad he smelled, and how sometimes it would hurt his fingers with the lighter, but he doesn't have any urges, not at all.

This is nice, he thinks and makes a note to ask Harry about it when his head isn't as cloudy as it is now.

He feels the same pushy feeling in his tummy as he did earlier and can't help but whine, he isn't sure what the feeling is, or how to make it go away, it isn't very pleasant.

"What is it lil bug? I'm just brushing my teeth and I will be there with you," Harry says from the small toilet where he has the door open.

"Mmmm now..." Louis says, the feeling growing more intense, he isn't sure what it means or if it's bad, so he tries to just relax his body, hopefully, it will go away.

Suddenly his body relaxes enough that his diaper fills, he whines again, a few stray tears falling, this is not a good feeling! And he wants out of it, right now! Why doesn't Harry understand?

"Okay, baby, I'm here. What can I help with, huh?" He says gently wiping some hair strands away from his face, the little boy not saying much just wiggling his bum, trying to make the man understand.