Sugar & Kisses || Larry ||

Terrified - 14

They all keep chatting, trying to make sure it is family friendly, for Louis. Harry nudged Liam when he accidentally started talking about Niall and some woman being together, which probably wasn't very family friendly. Louis just scrunched up his nose and cuddled into Harry's embrace. He didn't really like the topic, even though he knew what it meant, he wasn't "old enough" to understand the funny part of it.

Toby comes in and claps his hands. "Okay, boys! It is time to go do soundcheck and get you all dressed up for the show!" He says' not even caring that Louis is sitting in a hoodie and diaper, and even on Harry's lap.

"Yes!" Niall says, dragging the s out, he's already hyped up for the show. Nail loves to sing, and he loves to be on stage. It makes him feel like he is worth something, makes him feel like he can change the world, just by being himself and being happy. There is no better feeling than being on that stage, singing, and seeing all these fans who are so in love with them. There is just so much meaning in being the person he is. Even if sometimes on stage he plays differently, he pretends he is way more confident and that he can do anything he wants. But in reality, he struggles with confidence, struggles with how he sees himself. He sees himself as less than he is.

But on stage, he feels... good.

Niall gets up and starts rambling about what they should plan for this specific show, he just feels like he needs to do something out of it. It feels like a good day.

But Harry can't help but start to worry, Louis is just now feeling confident with being little around the other boys, what if he stuffs up? What if now that they play a show he's going to get too overstimulated or something bad? Deep down Harry knows these worries are just trying to play tricks on him, he knows that rationally these things won't happen. He will be fine. At least that's what he tries to convince himself.

He reaches over to Louis, caressing his cheek, while Louis smiles up at him, not seeing that Harry is worried. He just sees a man who wants to take care of him and help him, and it makes him feel so safe. Louis doesn't fully understand yet that he has to age up and start to... perform as someone else again. And Harry doesn't know if he actually wants to do this to Louis. But he has to.

"Hey buddy, how about we go in there and see if we can get adult Louis back, yeah?" Harry nudges Louis, pointing to the back room where the bunks are. Hoping that Louis won't feel bad about it.

Louis just nods, not sure how to say to the man that he doesn't want to be an adult, he was finally feeling so comfortable with being small, and he felt safe with it, so why does he have to be adult? What is so important?

"Okay, baby, can you try really hard to be a big boy for me? I promise you can be little after the show! We just need you to be a big, big boy so we can play the show for the fans! Is that okay baby? Harry says, with a big smile, slightly fake, but Louis doesn't have to know that. He is so worried that the boy is going to do something bad. He can't help it. He just wants to take care of Louis.

Louis just sits down, closing his eyes, trying so hard to think of all the big boy thoughts, trying to get into the body of being an adult. He wiggles his body a little bit until he scrunches up and shakes his body, almost as if to shake away the feeling of being little.

He can feel the nappy on him, and that he isn't wearing pants, he isn't sure how he feels about it. Because it is slightly uncomfortable to be in the diaper as a grown adult, but the safety and security he feels from it is nice. He likes the feel of it, the fluffy safety.

He wishes he could keep wearing it, but he knows that people will notice it, it isn't really easy to hide either. He might ask Harry if they can get some pull-ups so he doesn't have to worry as much. And that he can feel safer.