Sugar & Kisses || Larry ||

Explaining - 13

Harry carried the sleepy boy towards the bunks, ready for him to have a little nap, it wasn't that late in the AM, but he knew that they had to stay up late this evening, and Harry wanted Louis to have all the energy he could get. He wondered if he should let him sleep until he wakes up, or should set an alarm for a small hour and a half. He wasn't sure how long babies usually napped, also he was a grown adult. Do adults need the same amount of nap time? Since his mind is in this child-like state does that mean his needs are too?

Maybe this is going to turn out harder than he thought. He barely knows how to take care of a child, what if he messes up while taking care of Louis? He doesn't want to make age regression a bad thing for him, especially not if it actually works for him.

What if Louis got too much to handle for Harry? He has never really taken care of children, only Louis' small siblings who actually knew how to do a lot of stuff themselves. They've grown up in a house where you learn fast how to live, unlike Harry, who was babied his whole life, right up until he joined One Direction.

Harry just shakes his head and sets a timer, making sure not to close the door fully, so that he can hear when Louis wakes up if he wakes up before time.

Louis has seemed so tired lately, and Harry knew it was from the touring.

While Harry sits looking at his notes for the little meeting he's going to have with the boys, he can't help but think back to when he first started seeing how bad Louis was feeling, and the fact that he didn't catch up to it. He saw that Louis wasn't ready to take care of himself, and he started making sure Louis at least had a little food so that he could get home after being drunk out of his mind. He started making sure Louis wouldn't get into bad shit at interviews.

Harry thinks that it might have manifested into age regression, that it just started out small and Louis got taken in by Harry. He's always had this caregiver role to him when it comes to Louis.

He scrolls down his notes, thinking that he may have to add a few points. He has only mentioned the parts that he and Louis have actively been doing or talking about doing. But not about how to handle the regression with other people around, or how to do activities. He also doesn't know yet how to make Louis slip or how to age him up. There are a few points where he simply doesn't know, yet.

He decides to text the boys that Louis is down for a nap and that they can have a little chat outside the bus. The nervous sweat is making small stains on his shirt, he doesn't know how to handle it if they won't accept it.

As he stands and waits awkwardly outside the bus, he hears a little text tone go off, letting him know that the boys saw his message, he checks it and sees they have time now.

Now only to wait.

He can't help to get anxious again, thinking all of these "what ifs" thoughts. Which doesn't help when he is already nervous. They just keep running around his head, filling up his thoughts. He can't help but start focusing on them, maybe they are right, maybe they are actually going to react like this.

But Zayn seemed to know about it, so if he does, Liam must too. Right? They are so close and spend so much time together. It did seem like Niall was disgusted by it, what if it's how the rest are also going to react?

He can feel himself spiral more and more into this self-doubt. He can't seem to think even one positive thought. His whole thought process going worse and worse. Why would he even try to think that anything good can happen? Nothing good is going to happen to him, not when he is in this situation.

Suddenly the door opens and in comes Niall and Liam, no Zayn yet.

"Hey, Haz!" Niall says loudly, seeming like he has no care in the world. Harry tries to shush him so Louis won't wake up, standing up and going to the door to shut it calmly. He really hoped Louis didn't wake up from all that noise.