Mr. Bitter's Sweetness | So Junghwan ✓

Chapter sixteen ⚠︎

The clock said 4 AM.  My head felt fuzzy, and I cried because of what happened last night.  I wanted to disappear, to be clean again.  He knew where I lived. What if it happened again?  Maybe dying would be the only way to get rid of this shame.  Why me?  What did I do wrong?  I just wanted to stop feeling so bad.

A few hours later...

Cindy forced herself to get out of bed.  She knew she might hurt herself if she stayed there.  She felt empty inside.

She walked into school, but she wasn't really there.  Junghwan saw how sad she was. "Cindy, are you okay?" he asked, but she couldn't hear him.

The teacher called her name, but she didn't respond.  She was lost in her own thoughts. Junghwan shook her shoulder. "Cindy," he said.  "What?" Cindy asked, surprised. She realized everyone was looking at her. The teacher had called her name.  She raised her hand, like she was in a dream.

Everyone left except Junghwan and Cindy.  "Cindy, you're not yourself. What's wrong?" Junghwan asked. Cindy didn't know what to say. "I just miss..." She started, but Junghwan stopped her.

"Jeongwoo?! I've been with you this whole time, but you're still thinking about him, huh?"  Junghwan was angry.  He didn't like Jeongwoo very much.  Then, he walked out, leaving Cindy alone.

Cindy started to cry again, remembering everything.  She saw a sharp object and wanted to hurt herself. She cut her neck.  It hurt, but it felt like a relief, too.

Jihye was looking for her phone.  She found Cindy in the hallway and saw the blood on her neck.  She tried to grab the sharp object, but it fell out of Cindy's hand and cut her finger. "Just let me die!" Cindy yelled.  There was nobody else around.

Jihye's phone buzzed.  It was Doyoung.  He said he had to go.  She hugged Cindy.

Jihye's driver arrived, and she asked him to go to the room and help Cindy.

They got in the car.  "Don't tell anyone," Cindy whispered over and over.

"Cindy, you're awake!" Jihye said.
"I want to go to sleep forever," Cindy said, crying.

"Why would I let you die, Cindy? You're my friend," Jihye said.  "What's wrong?"

"If I tell you, will you be mad?" Cindy asked, scared.

Jihye wiped Cindy's tears.  "Of course not," she said.

"I... I was... raped," Cindy whispered, crying.  Jihye was shocked.  She hugged Cindy and held her close.