After Hardin left

Family reunion

Warning this contains sensitive topics and cussing please read with caution!

So, today's the day, the day we meet our grandpa Ken and granny Karen again, the day we meet him again. Let me explain. Hi my name's Emery but most people call me Em/Emma. My mom's name is Tessa Young and my sperm donor's name is Hardin Scott. I have a brother who's four years younger than me, his name's Auden. 

When I was younger, we used to be a really happy family. That all changed when I was five. My sperm donor started going out more and was home less and less until we were lucky to see him three times a year. He blamed it on work but my mom started getting really suspicious. Because of this they started fighting more and more and it wasn't a surprise when my mom sat me down one day and said that her and SD (sperm donor) were getting separated (not divorced because they were never married). What did surprise me was that SD wasn't there with mom to break the news and despite everything, I was a six y/o daddy's girl and it really stung that my SD wasn't there to share such an important piece of information with me. Mom said that he was going to be gone for a while and I did not take that well AT ALL. After she told me this and I found out she was the one wanting to get separated (overheard a conversation with her and grandma Kim), my feelings towards her began to sour. I thought she was the reason SD left and I wasn't very fond of her for taking my "father" away and breaking apart our happy family. I probably even hated her.... to say it wasn't my proudest moment would be an understatement! What makes it worse is that my poor mom took it. She ever told me the truth because she knew what my reaction to learning what my SD did would be so, to protect his image in my eyes, she kept quiet and let me believe that she did in fact break our family apart. So, to summarize, my mom was dealing with a really rough break-up, a 2 y/o, online harassment by her mother with "I told you so" messages AND me, I really hate myself for that. Some 2 months later, my SD sat me down and explained that he wanted to give up his custody of me and Auden. That's when it came to light that he had- I can't say it without throwing up..... I'm not going to give any fucking details but he did something unforgivable and truly disgusting. I remember when he first told me (not the whole thing because I WAS SIX), I had kicked him in the shin, called my mom with tears and apologized. She must've known that this was the after math of SD telling me because she didn't say much, just told me to pack up and that she was coming. When she came she looked fucking pissed. She told me to go sit in the car and she would bring all my stuff out. She and my SD got into a screaming match after I left (I was told about this later) and she came out looking pretty upset. I apologized again and she had smiled at me and had told me it was fine, that I was struggling and I had every right to be frustrated. It wasn't fine though and hearing her say those words made it even less fine. 

After this talk, our relationship really improved. When I fourteen I was told the full story of what my  SD did by my mom. Prior to her telling me this, I didn't think it was possible for my to hate my SD but after the explanation I sang a completely different tune. Auden does not remember SD (thankfully) but he isn't very fond of him (that might me my fault) but mostly all was well in our relationship.  

Right now we are on a flight from New York to Washington for granny and grandpa's wedding anniversary and honestly I'm not really sure how I feel. On one hand I love granny and grandpa and would love to see them again but, HE will be there! whatever, at least Addy, uncle Landon and auntie Sofia are coming. As I am thinking, I feel Auden's head fall on my shoulder. I see him sleeping peacefully and I smile softly. It's a hard task, making me smile let me tell you! But, Auden.... he's different. Whenever he's around, I can never be my cold self. I love him so much it's scary. 

Auden, my baby brother was the only thing I loved for a while. He was the reason I never ran away, the reason I never ended it. When I had found out the truth I felt really bad and it wasn't just for a little while. All the things I mentioned above stuck with me, even today and I felt like such a burden back then, I wanted to run away but I didn't. Why? Because I wanted Auden to know what it's like having an older sister. I remember the first time I saw him in the hospital. My mom was feeding him and my da- SD was kissing her forehead. I had come with to the hospital with nana (Trish) and I was not happy. I did not want a sibling because I thought my parents would stop loving me after he was born. All my negative feelings stopped the minute I saw him. When I first laid eyes on the little baby, I fell in love with him. My mom taught me how to hold him and then gave him to me. I could've spent days looking at him. He was so beautiful and was sleeping so peacefully. Since that day, me and him started playing together a lot. I told my mom that I never wanted a play-date again because now, I had my brother. I loved him with the full capacity of my heart and wanted to protect him at all costs and that's something that still hasn't changed. When I was fourteen and got told the full story of what SD did, I was in a fucked up place mentally and really wanted to end it. I fell into a really deep depression but I pulled through. How? Auden sweet-talked me into going to therapy. I got medically diagnosed with PTSD and social anxiety and was prescribed med's. They really helped. From that moment on, I loved him even more. I think I love him more than mom and I love my mother more than anyone but, as I said, Auden is an exception. He's always an exception for me.

I lay my head back and my tiredness wins against my will to keep talking in my head and I fall into a dreamless slumber.

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