~Him~

Chapter 19: "You drive me crazy"

"What are you doing?" I yelled across the room. "I'm leaving. What does it look like? I'm tired of you fucking me around everytime," Kurt yelled, throwing his bag across the room. I couldn't help but bawl my eyes out. Why does this always happen it me. "Maybe if YOU weren't too busy shooting up herion, I wouldn't have done that," I cried out. His facial changed into rage and anger, as if I shouldn't have mentioned the herion part.

"Fuck you," Kurt said moving closer. His hand is on my throat, shit I can't breath.

"Let me go," I cried , unable to get any oxygen into my body. His whole body was shaking, which was putting extra pressure on my larynx. "I'm going to pass out," I said in between my words. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

"Kurt," I cried out. "I'll fucking kill you, I swear to God," He said letting me go, pushing me to the ground. "I'm fucking leaving and there's nothing you can do about it whore ," he said grabbing his bag leaving the door.

I crash to the ground, I feel numb. My heart feels like someone just stabbed me so many times over and over again.

I jump up from my bed, holding my neck , gasping for air. 'What the actual fuck just happened?' I asked myself. I sit there for a few moments , then realize there js a bit of pressure on my lower stomach. Kurt's hand is placed on my stomach, while he is still peacefully sleeping. I let out a big sigh in relief, knowing that whatever the hell that was wasn't true.

"What's wrong?", kurt asked, concerned, sitting up from the bed. I just closed my eyes and sighed. "What happened? Why are you crying, my love?" He asked, pulling me closer to him. "I just had a messed up dream about you leaving," I said, not mentioning the fact that there was physical violence involved. He took a second to form the right sentence. "I'm not going anywhere, I promise," He said,
leaning in for a kiss.

This wasn't a normal kiss. This was a kiss filled with crave and lust. " I'll prove to you that I'm not going anywhere," he said in between kisses, removing his shirt. "I'll show you how fucking much you mean to me, and how I deeply regret hurting that little heart of yours," he said kissing my neck all the way down to my stomach.

I can't help but let out a small sound. The way his touch feels drives me insane. I hate that feeling where you love a person so much, that touching is not enough. I want him inside me.

"Take it off," I said out of breath, signaling for him to take off his pants. He understood by taking it off jumping on me ripping mine off. "You'll finally know how much I care about you," he said, putting his fingers in me aggressively. My head is spinning, I can't control the noises that is coming out of my mouth.

"Faster," he asked whispering in my ear. Fuck. I was unable to answered him. My words couldn't come out. I figured he understood by the way I made sounds so he kept on going faster and faster.

I glaze towards the clock, 4:55.
Shit

After a few moments he stops, "You drive me crazy Jules," he said kissing my forehead. "I'm sorry, I have to go," he smiled dissapointly. Of fucking course

I guess he saw the way my facial expression changed and ran towards me. "I'm leaving her ass for good, I love you Jules," he said kissing me softly. I look back at him in awe. This man has my whole heart.

But I'm scared he is going to fuck it up

I don't think I can trust him

"Maybe you can stay the night?" I asked hoping for a quick response.  He stood still as if he was thinking very hard. Later, he looked at me and responded with a smile.

"Of course," He whispered.

God this man knows what he's doing to me, and I love it