A Bullet to the Heart, ₗₑₑ Fₑₗᵢₓ

13.

⇝ ⇝ ⇝ I was fortunate enough today to have somewhat of a day's rest. All of the boys had a free day which they weren't spending at the JYPE building so my job was simply to go run errands if they needed anything and make sure they didn't go out alone. I had no messages till 11 am, someone wanted to go out and get those brownie ingredients.

I got dressed into some normal clothes - all black, of course, and put a simple handgun into the waist of my pants, making sure the lock is on. I went outside of my apartment and he was waiting there with a smile on his face. As I watched him, I couldn't help but notice his endearing persona, with an air grace and enlightenment. I am not sure if "nice" is the right word to describe his demeanour, but he certainly left a cheerful impression on me.

"Come on then, trouble," I tell him, as I unlock my bike and bring it outside of the building. As much as I trusted the people in the building, I was still surprised no one had at least risked breaking the lock on the bike.

"We're not taking the bike right?" He questioned and I nodded.

Yesterday, after eating with Felix, I noticed the government goons had gone inside my apartment and placed some gear into my wardrobe area for the bike. Felix looked nervous so I went to him and carefully slipped the big motorbike safety jacket on him - not that he would need it, bikes are completely my forte.

"Hey, look at me," I said to him and we made eye contact, "I shoot guns for a living, I can ride a bike,"

He scoffed, "I know you can, but I've never been on one,"

I had got it wrong - I thought he was nervous because perhaps he didn't trust me driving it since this was my first time driving in Korea, but instead, it was just because he was a nervous first motorcycle passenger. I couldn't help but pat his head and smile.

"All you have to do is hold on tight, and lean with me when we take corners," I told him and he nodded in understanding.

I zipped up the jacket on him, making sure it was secure on him despite it being too big for his build. Then, I moved his hair from his eyes and put the helmet on his head. I clipped it together under his chin and then helped him climb on the back of the bike. I got in position and put my own helmet on. It was tight on my head, perfect fit. 

I was about to start the engine when I felt a lack of hands around my waist. I looked back to see he was picking at the bracelet on his wrist, distracted and nervous. I rolled my eyes and reached back and took his hands in mine and placed them together around my waist. Due to this, he sank forward so he was completely pressing against me.

"Hold tight," I said to him and I assumed he nodded.

I eased onto the bike and started moving slowly, using my feet to balance as I guided the bike into the middle of the road. I placed my feet on the bike and gradually gained speed. Eventually, we hit a main road and I was just using the English part of the signs to drive towards what I thought was downtown Seoul, where a lot of shops were. I followed cars mainly and didn't filter through cars because I wasn't sure if it was legal here.

Eventually, we found ourselves at a large shopping district. I parked in a large car park which was nearly full to the brim and made sure to lock my bike again after Felix and I got off. I gently took his helmet off for him and laughed when his long blonde hair was sticking up in multiple places.

"What?" He laughed too, our joy seeping together.

"Your hair, hold still," I said to him as I used my hands to settle his hair back into place.

He stood still, his eyes watching my every move and I was aware of it, and then thanked me - perhaps it was just me but when I was doing it, I felt there was a tension there. Sexual, probably not but I knew what was happening to me. I felt that sensual tension between us. I tried my best to ignore the emotions that were stirring within me, especially towards him. But deep down, I knew that the more I tried to push them aside, the stronger they became. It was as if my heart had a mind of its own and was determined to lead me down a path that I wasn't sure I was ready to take.