My Hyung, My Love. [Completed]

JK

I held onto Namjoon hyung as he hugged me tightly. He finally let go of me a few seconds later and looked at me. He caressed my face softly and told me to have dinner first.

"Eat dinner. Let's not make everyone else worry. They are all concerned about you."

I bit my lips, looked downwards, and nodded my head slowly. Hyung took my hand and brought me back to the table. This time, he made me sit on his seat and sat near me, serving me before himself. The boys just looked at me, and V patted my shoulders in comfort. I apologised softly for my behaviour, and Hobi just waved it away.

Jin looked at me and finally spoke in a gentle voice, "Eat more, Kookie. If RM bullies you, tell me."

I bit back a smile and nodded my head. I ate my food with Namjoon hyung, who was making sure I ate properly. He also held my hand occasionally from time to time. Once dinner was over, Jin sent me and hyung out on the pretext of buying ice cream for everyone. He nodded, grabbed his wallet, mask, and a cap, and I did likewise.

We walked out, feeling the cool breeze against our skin. The walk was silent, punctuated only by our steps and soft breaths.

"I... I'm sorry.. for everything. I.. I really like you, Kookie. I realized I was starting to like you more than just a bandmate. And I keep telling myself I can not do that because it's wrong. And that I should treat you like a brother. But it's difficult. I really am conflicted. That's why I.. I just.."

Hyung sighed, unable to express himself. I just looked at him from under my cap. I was about to reply to him but realized we had reached the store. We decided to go in first, looking for the flavours the boys would like. I was busy picking out for the group whilst I realized that Namjoon went around picking snacks that I would enjoy.

I went back with the ice cream for everyone whilst he had a basket full of snacks and banana milk for me. I looked at him, slightly amused. He just smiled at me softly, and I could see his eyes crinkle under the mask.

We paid for the stuff and left. He was carrying the bags, and I offered to, but he waved it away. Instead, he grabbed my hand and held it as we walked back. I looked at him in surprise.

"Is this OK?"

I looked at him and nodded. He just grasped it tighter, in response, and we got back to the apartment. Jimin met us at the door and took the bags from us, throwing us a smirk at our clasped hands. I pulled it away, blushing whilst hyung just rubbed his face in low-key embarrassment, too. Suddenly, I heard V gasp in surprise.

"Why are all of the snacks JK's favourites?"

Everyone turned to look at us, throwing knowing looks at Namjoon especially. I quickly scuttled away, leaving RM to answer whilst I sneaked to get banana milk and ran off to my room.

A few minutes later, I heard a soft knock on my door.

"Come in" I called out as I changed out and turned around only to see hyung standing at the door, red faced over the fact that I was topless. Shit! I quickly pulled on my shirt and beckoned him in.

Namjoon sat down on the bed and looked at me. I went over and sat near him. He covered the remaining distance and sat closer to me, taking my hand in his.

"I like you hyung. A lot. Initially I thought it was just like brotherly love. But I realised I wanted you to be mine. Like I can call you mine. Your maknae. Only yours. It hurt me oddly when I heard you said you didn't want it. When Suga hyung asked me what I wanted, I knew then it was you. I just..I want what you want. At the end of the day, you matter to me. What is it you want? I would want the same thing."

"No matter what it may be?"

I nodded my head, citing yes.

"You. I want you, Kookie."

I bit my lips, holding back my tears hearing that. Knowing it was all I ever wanted. Hyung came even closer to me and held me by my chin, forcing me to look at him.

"OK?'

I nodded minutely stating my agreement. He smiled at me, leaning in to place a feather like kiss on my forehead.

Pulling away, he murmured, "Thank you. And sorry for hurting you so much Kookie."

I shook my head, words still not coming out, overwhelmed by my emotions. He pulled me into his embrace, hugging me tightly.

"Be my maknae. Only mine."