Everyone has experienced setbacks, made errors in judgment, and had their trust broken due to unfulfilled promises. These experiences can leave us feeling vulnerable and betrayed. However, we eventually gather the strength to pick ourselves up, dust...
As I sat there, drowning myself in alcohol, trying to forget all my problems, I watched as everyone around me jumped or grinded against each other in what they called dancing.
I found myself unable to endure the situation any longer. The overcrowded house, the loud music, and even life itself. I never really had a happy life, and everything was overwhelming, but I had never considered life to be entirely devoid of purpose—not until I met them. They made me realize what it felt like to be accepted , only to be abandoned like everyone else.
As I rose from the couch, a wave of dizziness swept over me, making it difficult to maintain my balance. After a few moments, I managed to regain some stability and turned towards the door. As I did so, my gaze met a pair of vibrant green eyes filled with concern and longing. However, I reminded myself that he no longer had the right to be concerned about me after everything that had transpired.
But then again, I understand why he didn’t take my side. Why would he? There’s his best friend. I’m merely some guy he just met. But I deluded myself into thinking I was important to him—to them.
‘Told you they’d do this.’
Stop! I don’t want to hear this. I already know I made a mistake. I thought as I continued to push my way through the bodies of sweaty, drunk teens—something that would have made me go into a panic attack, but now I’m too drunk to even care.
'If you know it’s pointless, why not end it all?'
I made a promise to her that I would live my life to the best of my abilities, I contemplated, shaking my head as I made my way outside.
‘She abandoned you like everyone else. Why live for someone who isn’t here?’
I took a sip of the vodka, trying to drink away the voice.
‘I know you want to.’
I can’t—
‘What good is life anyway?’
I—
‘Be honest, you’ve always wanted this, so why are you questioning it?’
That is when I came to the realization that I was headed toward the road, where a car was speeding toward me. But I did not experience fear—instead. It was a sense of anticipation. With this, my life will come to an end. There will be no more pain.
“Nick!”
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