Dear You,
You're birthday is a week from tomorrow. You're going to be 17. Is it scary? I guess both of us have the stress of colleges and figuring out what to do. Sometimes, I see how much you've grown, but then I see how much you still have to grow and understand it's kinda hard to watch you not even care. I know you say you're going to try harder, but since when have you proven your promises to be true? Honestly, I don't think I've gotten more than one promise the actually happened from you. You have so much potential for great things, yet, you don't care, and you're lazy. It's kinda depressing to watch you go about saying that your life is good when just a week ago you told me how messed up your life is. I understand so many people in the church are hypocritical, and I can't change them, but I can try to not be hypocritical. That's how we change the world. We change ourselves then watch as others follow. You make it seem impossible but trust me. I care so much about you and I hate to see you in pain, but sometimes, I think you deserve it for how much pain you've caused people, but then I realize you do deserve it, just like I do, but Jesus died on that cross so we don't have to deal with it. He never said there wasn't going to be trials and hard times, in fact, He tells you they will come but that He will be beside you through it, that He will not leave you nor forsake you. I just don't see how you say you grasp it but don't do anything about it. I mean God, an almighty, never failing, loving God, gave His Only Son to die on a cross for your sins. I see that you're grateful but if you continue sinning it's kinda useless. Basically telling God, "Hey! You're Gift was great and all, but I'm going to take it and throw it on the ground because it's worthless to me."
I just don't get how so many people can do that.
See it,
~Me
