Dear You,
What now? We are best friends yet when we get alone all I want to do is kiss you. Sunday, we did, and now I feel like there should be more than just a best friend relationship. I want to call you mine and I'm done waiting. I know I should wait just a little but that doesn't sound right. What am I supposed to do now? You told me that you just want to make me happy. That's amazing. You don't like it when I wear makeup and you are protective over me like a dad, we fight like siblings, probably more, and we talk like we're best friends. The only thing is to flirt like first loves. I just want your heart. Sometimes, I think I have it then sometimes, I doubt anything that goes through my head.
You said you would ask my dad for permission to date me but I'm scared. What if my dad says no? It would be an embarrassment beyond belief for both of us. I really like you and I would do anything to get you to be mine. Well, almost anything, I wouldn't disobey my parents or God. I refuse to. Right now, I'm not sure what God is saying but I do know that something is wrong about this. Maybe it's God telling me that it's not time. He hasn't said that this is wrong but He hasn't said it's right either. I don't know what to think.
Maybe if we wait till I'm sixteen? Maybe that would be best. We would both be able to get closer to God and each other. I read something once and and I believe it. "If two people are in a relationship they should bring each other closer to God not farther." Are we doing that? That's a big question. I can pretty much say that we aren't. We both need to get closer to God before we can do this.
It's bizarre how much you learn from just writing out what you know. You tend to connect things. I really love talking to you and everything and I think we will be something in the future but for now I think we need to keep it at a best friend basis.
You know I really care about you. I don't want you to think it's because I don't. I just want to do what's right. And us, at the moment, is not right.
Thanks for understanding me,
~Me
