Dear You,
A year ago today is the first time you kissed me. I remember because it was my first kiss. I say I've gotten over you and I'm lying to myself to say I am. If you kissed me today I would kiss back. I miss that. The feel of your lips mine. I crave it. I remember when I asked you if you wanted a kiss and you had your back turned to me talking to my little brother. It was a Hershey's kiss. You turned around before you answered and smiled. You said "Sure." Little did you know that the chocolate was nasty. My sister told you it was nasty, I laughed. You were going to eat it. Oh, that's an amazing memory. But I think my favorite memory is when we went ice skating. We were just hanging out and I had a stomach ache because of the pizza we had eaten. Your friends were around us but it felt like we were alone. I had sat down in the little side thing. You came in and sat beside me and hugged me then kissed my head. You told me that you would stay with me until I felt better. I told you that I was feeling better. You knew I wasn't but you went along with it and pulled me up and we started skating again. Later in the middle we went and got something to drink you got me a chocolate bar and I will never forget it. I just loved how sweet you were but you were also joking around at the same time. You said that I was heavier than I look. I was never sure if that was a compliment or an insult. I even asked your best friend. He didn't know either. You kept saying it's a compliment but I just kept making you feel bad. You made me feel welcome in a bunch of people I didn't know and that's a lot.
We are close friends now. You still have that one part of my heart that says I feel that way about you. I don't need a relationship right now so I'm going to keep my mouth shut. That and I know you don't feel that way about me. I will continue to get back that piece but some reason I know I won't be able to. Just like my first kiss you will always hold it no matter how much I try to convince myself you don't have it. Maybe it's the first kiss that attaches me or it's those eyes that have the color of the ocean, beautiful.
So the point of this letter? Well, there's not a real reason but you just need to know that I know you are amazing and I will continue to love you. No matter how much I love you though, I will keep to myself about this certain subject with you. I know you think I'm over you but think again because I really do love to be in your presence. It puts a smile on my face no matter how bad of a mood I'm in. And I want to thank you for that because you never seem to leave me without a smile.
Never give up,
~Me
