Dear You,
I've been asked to let you go. It's not by my parents or friends or even you. God asked me to let you go. I know it sounds stupid, but every time I think about you I know I need to stop talking to you. I need to stop being there for you. I need to stop being friends with you. You may not know it, but this is one of the hardest things I've had to do in a long time. Giving up one of my best friends is not something people like to do, especially not me. I have never hated doing something as much as this. I would give almost anything up to not have to do this but knowing that's true makes me realize I need to give you up even more. I've been putting you before God and that is not something He nor I want for me. I care just a bit too much. No matter how hard this is for me I refuse to back down from it. It's been about two months of talking only casualties. It feels like torture but there's this weird peace about the whole situation and I know it's God. There is a freedom of letting go that I can't explain that makes me certain that it truly is God and only God because God has said that His peace is an explainable peace. A peace that you only need to ask for with a believing heart to gain.
Not being able to talk to you about things that I don't talk to other people about has been really hard but I'm managing. I haven't texted you in forever and it's actually way easier that I would have originally thought. I feel like it's a freedom to not be tied down by all the things we've been through and just be me. No judgement from your part.
It's been really hard but I know there is a hidden purpose that God has that I don't quite see yet.
There are so many things other than the fact I had been putting you before Christ that go into why I had to completely let go. I know some of them and your probably understand some from your point of view but for now neither of us will see the whole picture.
I wasn't planning on writing to you but I had some bundled up feelings I just needed to get out. Keep fighting for God, never give up, love all, bless others, be you,
~Me
