Dear You,
I so thought you had changed, I was so wrong. I was around you and I felt special because I actually thought you liked me. How wrong was I?
Should I tell the story over for you? I think you need to see it in my eyes. The way I saw it when you ripped out my heart and jumped on it.
I guess it started on Sunday afternoon, you didn't seem to want to talk to me anymore. I was texting you and you kinda just stopped. I told you you could text me when you get done with whatever you were doing. I send another text saying that instead you should facetime me. By the time you were done I was going to bed.
On Monday, it was somewhat the same. There was a big storm and I've always really liked storms but this was a bad one. I wasn't really worried but I was texting you anyways just because I really wanted to. The power went out and I couldn't text you for the rest of the night. When I woke up the next morning you had sent me a texting saying you weren't bored because you had a girl to keep you company. Do you know what that did to me? Not something you say to someone who you supposedly like and likes you back.
Later on Tuesday, the storms started up again. Only for like five minutes but in those five minutes my barn's roof came off. Not all of it but a good bit of it. I told you and you asked to see if we needed help from you and your dad because you were trained in the Prepare and Respond thing. I told you that we didn't need it that we have plenty of help. You said okay then said if you brought your girlfriend to church on Wednesday not to be rude to her.
Girlfriend? Girlfriend?!? I know we aren't actually a thing but I was seriously hoping you wouldn't go off and get a girlfriend. I thought you liked me. I thought you had given up on the "I need a girlfriend at all times" thing. Guess I was wrong. Once I said no you had to go off and get yourself a girlfriend. Ouch. Do you know the pain that caused me? I refused to cry though. You aren't worth my tears. My trust is gone in a sense. It may not make much sense. What did you do to lose my trust? What did I do for you to go off and get a girlfriend and not wait for me? Four months! That was it! You couldn't even do that. I see now how you actually felt for me. I was just a charity case because I like you. Well, guess what? I'm not and I'm done with you. I'm done putting any hope into a cause that just falls apart. I thought you had stopped with the girlfriend thing. I was wrong. More wrong than I have ever been before. I seriously thought that I was special. That I was worth at least a little wait. But no! Not to you, I wasn't. I realize now that all you said was lies. It's so sad because I actually believed you even when you had lied in the past. You've hit your final mistake with me. I can't trust you anymore. I refuse to. I will not set myself up for disappointment and hurt all over again. The first time was a mistake, the second and so on was a choice. I'd give anything up to be around you but now I'm done with the hurt and sorrow that you've caused me.
I'm done. I forgive you but I'm done. I am not doing this anymore. I don't hold you to it. I just can't do it anymore. I'm done fighting for something that you don't want.
Goodbye,
~Me
