After Happily Ever After

Amity Blight

I was lying. I knew I was. She knew I was. So now when she asked me if I was okay I had lied to her. After all I didn't want to back on what I had told her. I do want her to be happy. I really do. But does her being happy mean I have to lose her in the process? But then again I saw the in her gorgeous brown eyes, empty hollow sadness as she sacrifices her needs over mine. She wore the same pained expression that I have seen so many times before. The one that says; 'I don't want to do this but I'll do it for you.' It's the same expression she wore when she tried to tell us she was staying in the human Realm before Camila cut her off and got us to her with us to the Demon Realm. The same emptiness she carried after King's sacrifice on the day of Unity. She the same emptiness she felt on the first time she told me her father passed away. The emptiness every time me, Vee, Camila and Luz go to visit his grave and spend the day together.

Of course I haven't told her any of this. I think she can tell though. I think she's waiting for me to open up on my own, but I don't think I will. I have already told her too much and almost jeopardise her going to university in the first place. I can't let her not go just because of my stupid anxiety.

She is currently at Eda's apartment, visiting King and Raine. I think she mentioned that Eda is busy at the University- which is a given since she is the Headmistress of the school- and plans on seeing her after to get a look at the place and even see what room is like. It's been a long time since she's hung out with them so, I understand why'd she want to go.

But today I am off work. It's been three days since I told Luz about my fears and I can't seem to shake the anxiety away. Dad and Darius will return home soon. On Monday to be precise. But that's also the day Luz starts University. I'm really nervous for her. But I know that she can handle it. I believe in her. And on the plus side I can distract myself from my anxiety by being busy with the project. Though me and Lillie have talked about scraping it since we have been working on it to no avail. I'll have to talk to my dad about it being so unsuccessful.

But another thing has been bothering me. You see, when Luz asked me what what was wrong, I lied because I didn't want to admit the fact that I was asking for advice on Pentstagram. Yeah, I know, not a smart move. But Willow had been busy and so had the twins and I couldn't even talk to Luz because she would sacrifice her happiness for me again. Of course not many had not been given the most supportive of advice.

UNKNOWN USER 

You two have been dating for a long time now. Kids your age should be having fun, not acting like a married couple. If you have never dated someone else then maybe you should try. If you want my advice then date as many people as possible! 

UNKNOWN USER

GURL, wut r u so worried bout? Dating girls is just a game. If she wants to go to university then clearly she don't want u. Stop being such a bebe. 🙄

UNKNOWN USER

Hi! Just wanted to put my opinion in here. Honestly I think her going to university is a good thing. She gets to meet new people and have a new real world experience. Personally, I think it's up to you what you do and whether you split up or not but I suggest not to be too surprised if ( or when) you do. Young love never lasts forever. There are plenty of fish in the sea and you will find your sole mate eventually but I doubt that someone who is your high school crush will be the person that you'll get married to and start a family with. Honestly, Blight. University is a time for dating. Don't be the one to stop her.